Jedidiah a pensé

Blessed

2010-06-21T22:23:00.002+08:00

Blessed

Had a real good week. Had a good rest too. I went for four days youth camp and I ought to give thanks for it. Though I sprained my knee - still pain and strain now, I had a good time through out. I give thanks for my disciples and cell members. You know, it was quite tiring and tedious to take up 'shepherding'. It was never easy in the first place. It is the fruit produced thereafter that gave me much joy and satisfaction in serving. Knowing that it is Him I am serving and not people alone.

I gave thanks to the Lord for Wenhao who was the camp commandant for this youth camp. Seeing him taking up this 'fierce' role and leading the camp through out is worth praising God. I believe he has grown more firm in his speech and people management. I believe more that he has grown in the Lord. Work towards the vision the Lord has given you, younger brother!

I gave thanks to the Lord for Senhui too, who took up the backstage role of being one of the designer designing the Camp tee. It is always him, one who likes many of the supporting role, do it well, good and more importantly faithfully. It was great being able to talk with him during the camp and get updated. I hope he is well reminded! It is an honor to be able to wear my disciple's designed tee.

I gave thanks to the Lord for Samuel, Sean and Diancong who each took up - ok, you're volunteered - the roles of leaders in the camp . Trust me, I speaking the truth, I only got to realise that all three of them are leaders during the camp fire. Anyway, I gave thanks that they learned to lead, be able to enjoy and most importantly, went up front during the camp fire sharing to share thanksgiving! All three of them!

I gave thanks to the Lord for my family too. I had really a good time last Saturday going Kota Tinggi to visit my grandaunt. She was so old but I love her loads! When my family and I visited her last Saturday. Tears can be seen in her eyes when she saw us. We talked alot about the many past we had. I wanted to give her a surprise by showing her Esther's picture but facebook has gone ahead of me! She was like, "Oh...I saw your girlfriend in the computer..." Haha! My cousin showed it to her! We ate the unique black sauce "fried fu juan" (instead of cha siew) noodles and the one & only Cendol( 3 bowls). The best thing about cendol is fresh coconut milk, brown sugar - won't be sticky around your mouth after eating- and the fresh green bean jelly like thing. Come on, when I last ate, it was the father who sold it to me and now the son take over. How time flies! I have been travelling with my family to kota tinggi since young! I gave thanks to the Lord for all the quality time spent with my grandaunt and family!

2010-06-14T21:29:00.003+08:00

The Chronicle of Narnia : Jesus and His followers

Just had a week of good break. Took a week leave and today is my last day. Time flies. I got to ask myself how well have I spent my 24hrs x 7 days. Well, I think I spent it good. With 4 days in Church Youth Camp, 2 days of outing with my boys, 1 day with my beloved girlfriend and my family.

Watched The Chronicle of Narnia Part 1 and 2 movies just now and I enjoyed it. There were 5 main characters. Aslan the Lion king of Narnia, Peter the older brother, Susan the older sister, Edward the younger brother and Lucy the youngest sister. As I was watching the movie, it seems to me that there was Christian values in it. Aslan represents Jesus, out of Love for us, ended being the sacrifice for us but was resurrected thereafter, conquering death. Peter has the character of Apostle Peter who was rash at times. Susan has the character of Martha. Lucy has the character of Mary. I was deeply touched by the scene especially when Susan and Lucy was staying by the side of Aslan. All Lucy wants was to stay by the side of Aslan. Isn't it the same as Mary staying by the side of Jesus? When Lucy saw Alsan, she was running towards him. If I were to write all, I think I might as well write the review. Anyway, it was a good movie though I watch it like couple of years later after they screen it. Very deep Christian values and my mind couldn't stop thinking about it and praising God.

Granny who was full of Grace (Jesus)

2010-04-03T23:00:00.005+08:00

Two years ago, some of us knew this old lady whos smile was genuine and kind. I was playing guitar and we sang two of her favorite Christian songs in chinese and hokkien. We had a wonderful time of gathering and worshiping at her house.

When I went for the memorial service just now. I saw this brother in Christ and he was crying when he saw us. Holding our hands and kept repeating "Ar Ma (Mother).. gone home..". My heart aches when I see how dearly has he miss his mother. This old lady has gone home, heavenly home. A place where there will no longer be pain and tears.

I was touched and ministered when I heard how a godly lady she was. "常用心，常动手，少说话" that's something that people said about her. She was always passionate about serving God, serving in areas that might not be visible in the eyes of men but great and honorable in the eyes of God.

I believe she has earned a big castle like house in heaven. Go on granny, I believe Our Father is waiting to say " Well done, my good and faithful servant..." to you.

2010-01-09T10:13:00.002+08:00

I've come to realise one thing. It's really not by 'our' might or 'our' power but by God's spirit. As I was watching a handmime on youtube. I was touched by God's love. Again. I was told that when we 'repeat' a performance, the 'effect' wasn't that strong anymore. I have watched people performing handmime more than once and I agreed that it is nothing new to me but I was touched again and again. Perhaps, the performance is nothing new but Jesus can still touch many, or rather all with the same repeated performance. I realise another thing, we should think that even though the same message or performance, as long as we are doing or serving God, it doesn't matter how much thing we going to do but how much Jesus has done for us. Not by Might not by Power but by God's Spirit.

2009-12-27T22:24:00.002+08:00

2010 awaiting in a few days time. What have I done in 2009? What have I achieved? What are the things I have learnt? Am I a blessing or ? Have I made an impact in other people's life? ...Does it matter... ? After today's sermon, I am starting to think how can I contribute in year 2010. Especially for God's kingdom, Church and Family.

2009-10-01T19:15:00.002+08:00

2 Corinthians 12:9 (New International Version)

[9But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.]

God said that His grace is sufficient for me. Although His grace is sufficient, it is still too much of a sufficient that I can comprehend. This, God calls it sufficient.

I was wondering how many time can God forgive me of the many wrongs I have done. Seventy time seven. I would have long gone to hell if God were to forgive me with the exact figure. Exact but not exact enough.

God has already forgiven me. Forgiven much by the blood of His Son.

How a christian can live a victorious life is when he know how much he has already been forgiven.

2009-09-28T10:32:00.002+08:00

Humble Pie

It is always easy to criticise many things, pointing with your finger. Boost about saying that "I saw this...", "This is wrong...", "I think we should...", "Perhaps, we could...". A revolution should start or the very least, some changes.

We frown when things doesn't seem to be going the way it should seems. We became unmotivated, unhappy, grudges were form, lost of the initial goal in mind, self-pity and then slowly, rebellious.

If things doesn't go in the way God intended, it is not us but God who will do the changes.

2009-09-14T11:11:00.003+08:00

Humility is a state of being humble, submissive and freedom of pride. Pride is something that will creep in without you being able to realise it unless you are alert enough. It is something that is dangerous, rebellious, full of envy. let history speaks of itself. Satan did that. He fell.

While pride falls , humility rise. Jesus served as a humble servant despite having a son-ship status of God and He was submissive to God the Father. Even though He is the Son of God, never once have He abused His authority as one. He portray the likeness of His Father.

Love for people. Love for children. Love for the lost. Jesus went around healing the sick, rejecting not anyone who came to Him. He welcomes children and had compassion on those who were sick and lost. Doing all these, all for the sake of glorifying God. Jesus focuses on God and thus He is able to love with the Love of God.

I have not been focusing on God more than I should have. I have been focusing on many other things other than God alone. I have not focus on the Cross. I have not been focusing on Jesus. God is a faithful God. He promised that He will never leave nor forsake me!

Over the past few months, I was living in a what seems like an empty shell. I am holding on to that little faith of mine, grabbing hold of that little hope I have. It was tiring. I was reading the daily devotion this morning when I came across this little story from Pastor Rick warren.

"Imagine riding in a speedboat on a lake with an automatic pilot set to go east. If you decide to reverse and head west, you have two possible ways to change the boat's direction.

One way is to grab the steering wheel and physically force it to head in the opposite direction from where the autopilot is programmed to go. By sheer willpower you could overcome the autopilot, but you would feel constant resistance. Your arms would eventually tire of the stress, you’d let go of the steering wheel, and the boat would instantly head back east, the way it was internally programmed.

This is what happens when you try to change you life with willpower: You say, "I'll force myself to eat less . . . exercise more . . . quit being disorganized and late."

Yes, willpower can produce short-term change, but it creates constant internal stress because you haven't dealt with the root cause. The change doesn't feel natural, so eventually you give up and quickly revert to your old patterns.

There is a better and easier way: Change your autopilot—the way you think. The Bible says, "Let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think" (Romans 12:2 NLT).

The New Testament calls this mental shift repentance, which in Greek literally means "to change your mind." You repent whenever you change the way you think by adopting how God thinks—about yourself, sin, God, other people, life, your future, and everything else. You take on Christ's outlook and perspective. "

Rely on God.

" God is good.
God is in control.
God will brings all things to pass " (Rev. Edmund Chan)

2009-09-05T16:42:00.005+08:00

Living your life without a purpose
and showing less respect than it should
is dishonoring the one who gave it,
who with all rights deserved all honor.

2009-09-02T21:26:00.002+08:00

What is life when you have not tasted death?

What is love when sacrifice was not made?

and each made their own god when they were made by God.

2009-07-19T17:47:00.003+08:00

It's not about the mountain nor the pastoral staffs or the church there. It's about thousands of those who desire to seek Jesus. Gathering at one place with one worship and one heart that God's presence is so strong among those who earnestly seek Him.

I'll be going off again to Korea Prayer Mountain to seek God. Allowing myself to be away from all distractions, people, work, etc. I'm anticipating something. I asked God for one thing this time. That is to have a one time breakthrough that will change my life forever. Imagine this, if God hears One Righteous prayer. What's more if thousands righteous gather at one particular place in worship? Won't that be powerful and anointed? His presence is strong among us.

I'm excited. Excited to see how I can encounter God in a way or another. I hope I can and with much anitcipation. Well, let me just say " I believe..."

2009-07-10T22:26:00.002+08:00

Different medias and news all over the world have been broadcasting about the late King of Pop M.J. Although I have very little knowledge about him but with due respect I find him a very talented singer and an inventor. From the finger snapping move in his song "Beat it" to the anti-gravity move in "Smooth Criminal" and moonwalk, he had shown great musical talent and invention. In addition, he had shown much love and appreciation to people around him and of course the world.

As I was chatting with esther yesterday night. A thought just flashes to me while we talked about him. I asked her, "Shouldn't we show more appreciation, love and concern to those around us when they are still alive? Rather than keeping it till the day of memorial?" Don't get me wrong. I'm not saying we did not but have we shown enough?

What is the first thing that come to your mind when mentioned about MJ? His way of showing love to his kids or his concern for the people around him or all the good he has done? If I may, I think (when he had yet passed on) many focus more on his plastic surgery or couple of years back when he carry young prince Michael II outside his window or perhaps, gossiping about his privacy and his way of taking drugs. I chose to give him my utmost respect for his many contributions to the music industry.

Regarding the question I asked my girlfriend. I think it serves a good reminder for me and the many you. Start to appreciate and show love and concern to people around you.

Jedidiah apense

2009-07-07T12:04:00.006+08:00

02/07/09

Well, it was a special day. My birthday! I don't really celebrate my birthday but it was a first of an experience to celebrate with someone you love. The feeling of it? Loving. Ha.I feel good of course! My girlfriend does all the planning for the day. Received a self made card at the start of day especially for me. That's sweet! Yup, especially for me so it's personal and I can't possible post it up! *grin*

We went to watch Transformers movie and I was like "Oh my gosh!" with the explosions. It was awesome. It was quite confusing at the start of the movie because you're not sure who are the good guys and the baddies. Then the 'voice' beside me kept asking me "Who's the bad guys huh? Is it this? Is it that?" With all wisdom from the most high, I answered "Yes, I think this is bad...I think that is good..." with my fingers crossed. Haha! We enjoyed the movie.

Went to somewhere nice for our dinner. We had a pizza and cocktails to go along with. Nice. I appreciate each of the effort, time and company of my girlfriend! Well, of course not forgetting the wonderful blessings from my brothers! You know who you guys are! Without the blessings, I think the both of us may not enjoy that much!

Happy Birthday to me '09

2009-06-29T17:26:00.003+08:00

Went over for Howluen's 21st birthday yesterday. I appreciate each time when I get to gather with my fellow crusaders. "Fiery" crusaders I mean. No wonder God said in his words that we should mingle (fellowship) more with brothers and sisters. Lots of fun, crap, appreciation, encouragement, sharing, experience and love. Just found out that we got a new member! *Drum roll... Ta ta! The young petite leehuan's boyfriend! Haha.

Had quite a night. Watch a guy performing some fire act. You know, those swallowing of fire, etc. It was my first time though to watch this kind of performance. Not quite entertaining.Ha. Drank a cranberry volka cocktail. Not bad for the taste but it smells like some pantene shampoo. Ooo yuks. It was quite a short but fulfilling night.

27/6/09

2009-06-26T11:51:00.002+08:00

It's only a matter of God's divine intervention. It's all about God's timing and the heart of His people. Just came back from a series of revival and witnessing the work of Jesus. Refreshed and rejuvenated in Jesus!

It's has always been in my heart, hoping and desiring the work of God in the midst of RYM. God seems to "fail" me over the years. I was thinking to myself "Perhaps I've not prayed enough? I need to do more. I need to be more spontaneous, hyped up, lively, more...more...more." Is it true?

Over the years, I've seen many of us squeezing our brain juice thinking how can we 'revive' the teens and of course, youths. We came through a series of 'revival' and it always seems to me that it won't last. Why?

I was pondering over the question "why?". For some, they say it's the heart of the teens. For some, they say we need to do this and that thereafter. For some, they say we need to push them to be leaders.

As I was reflecting, I can say that we're doing alot of what we think we should be doing instead of seeking wisdom and direction from God.

God words "Proverbs 3:5-6"

Acknowledge Him first.

Jedidiah a pense

2009-05-07T20:03:00.003+08:00

As I headed back home from the train station, my heart started to mumble little prayers while I was in the midst of the crowd. I prayed for the love of our dearest God to be pour on to each and everyone of them but it seems to me that I was told they were given already. Gospel is to be make known to them.

You know what? Nothing beats then to be able to talk to God. I treasured every moment when I pray especially whenever there is a mutual conversation. I was worshiping and talking to God when I continue my journey back home. I told Him I want to experience the first love we had before. I want to taste the first love all over again.

"Imagine how our Lord yearn for us everyday, like how we yearn for each other's messages." - A Couple

Yes, Jesus yearn for us every moments just like how much a couple would yearn to see each other. Christianity isn't passive, it take lots of initiative. A lot infact. Gospel of Christ shouldn't be a sale subject. You don't sell it, you show it. God took the initiative and bearing our infirmity on the cross to show how much He loves us. God walk around the earth then doing not talk the talk but walk the talk. You see, Jesus did not just preach about how much He loves the sinners but showing them love by accepting them, teaching them, healing them and even revived some!

Jesus accepted us.

As I was reflecting over the Love of God, I can feel so much that I'm convicted and convinced of His love for me!

2009-03-23T20:04:00.002+08:00

Inside the small boat were several large yellow fin tuna. The banker complimented the fisherman on the quality of his fish and asked how long it took to catch them.

The Fisherman replied, "Only a little while."

The Banker then asked, " Why didn't you stay out longer and catch more fish?"

The Fisherman then said, " With this I have more than enough to support my family's needs."

The Banker then asked, " But what do you do with the rest of your time?"

The fisherman said, "I sleep late, fish a little, play with my children, go for walks with my wife, stroll into the village each evening where I sip wine and play guitar with my friends. As you can see, I have a full and busy life."

The banker scoffed, " I am a Harvard MBA and could help you. You should spend more time fishing; and with the proceeds, buy a bigger boat! With the proceeds from the bigger boat you could buy several boats. Eventually you would have a fleet of fishing boats. Instead of selling you catch to a middleman you would sell directly to the processor, eventually opening your own cannery. You would control the product, processing and distribution. You would need to leave this small coastal fishing village and move to the capital city. After that, who knows, maybe you could take on the world!"

The fisherman asked," But, how long will this all take?"

To which the banker replied, "I'd say about 15 to 20 years."

"But what then?" asked the fisherman.

The banker laughed and said," That's the best part! When the time is right, you would announce an IPO and sell your company stock to the public and become very rich, you would make millions."

"Millions?... Then what?" the fisherman continued prodding.

The banker said, " Then you would retire. Move to a small coastal fishing village where you would sleep late, fish a little, play with your kids, go for romantic walks with your wife, and in the evenings you could sip wine, play guitar and sing songs with your friends!"

To which the fisherman mused, "Now isn't that strange... Isn't that what I'm doing now?"

Have we been toiling hard for what we already have?

2009-03-17T10:35:00.003+08:00

Living in where we are now and the era we are in has perhaps set a certain trend or standard that we think we ought to follow. We thought this might be the right way?

So, what is right? Everyone has different views on what is right. You and I maybe different or if not, the same. What makes me think that I'm right and he is wrong? He has his own view and I have mine so who is right? All views are affected slightly or if not more due to many reasons. Lifestyle, Fashion, Places, Food, Peer pressure, Environment, certain Circumstances or even Situation we met had cause us consciously or not, to follow what we think maybe right.

The very first man falls because of pride. They saw the apple was good. Pleasing to the eyes. " Just an apple..come on" They follow what they think maybe right. Forgetting what their dear Lord had said, the actual right way. Here's where we begin. The Fall of Man and sin reaching into the world.

Haven't we learnt the lesson? Should we follow what we think maybe right, it wouldn't be more right'er than what our dear Lord think.

Then there are others who first implement what they think is right then put God's name in it. Shouldn't it be the other way round? Why don't we place ourselves in humility and listen to what others are going to say instead of giving our very own views or even opinions. We all learn. Sometimes, giving our very own opinion(s) may not be the right alternative. God gave us two ears, one mouth. Listen attentively and speak wisely.

Learn as time goes by to listen more and giving less comments or advices. It makes the other party feels that you're understandable and in return, we'll understand the other party more. Listen first. Listen to the whole story. Listen to the cries. Listen to all and then speaks wisely, with love.

Jedidiah Apense

2009-03-13T18:57:00.003+08:00

Just watched Forrest Gump movie. A 1994 movie. It's a classic! Alrights, stop giving that "You only watch Forrest Gump movie now!?" look. I watched it anyway.

I love many of the little phrases in the movie.

"Mama always could have a way to explain things so I could understand.."

"Life is like a box of chocolate Forrest, you never know what you gonna get.."

"I always think of Jenny.."

"No one would believed that One would do a thing without particular reason.."

"I like running.."

Perhaps the most blessed person is to simply believed that they are bless.

Oh man, I'm hyped up with 2 cameras now. Olympus E520 and Panasonic Lumix GH1 !!

Hope

2009-02-20T12:32:00.002+08:00

Every being hope for or hope in something. You are studying hard and you hope for good results. You are a filial son and you hope to gain a smile from parents. You are working and you hope to perform well in your company. You are tired and you hope to get some rest. You are courting someone and you hope there will be good progress. You are sick and you hope to get heal and be well. You are in a deep situation and you hope to get out of it. Like wise, there are some who lost hope. Hopeless in getting good results. Hopeless in being a filial son. Hopeless to perform well in his/her company. Hopeless for a relationship. Hopeless in getting heal. Hopeless in a situation. Hope gives you a vision and possibilities for you to cling on too and work towards it. Hope gives you the strength to move on. To place your hope in something or in the right person, it is something important. Look to Him who gave it all.

Great is thy faithfulness Ha!

2009-02-18T13:09:00.002+08:00

2009/02/17

Surrender: Let Go and Let God Work by Rick Warren

Surrender yourself to the Lord, and wait patiently for him. Psalm 37:7 (GWT)

*** *** *** ***Surrendering your life means:·
Following God’s lead without knowing where he’s sending you;·

Waiting for God’s timing without knowing when it will come;·

Expecting a miracle without knowing how God will provide; ·

Trusting God’s purpose without understanding the circumstances.

You know you’re surrendered to God when you rely on God to work things out instead of trying to manipulate others, force your agenda, and control the situation. You let go and let God work.You don’t have to always be in charge. Instead of trying harder, you trust more.

You also know you’re surrendered when you don’t react to criticism and rush to defend yourself. Surrendered hearts show up best in relationships. You are not self-serving, you don’t edge others out, and you don’t demand your rights.

The most difficultthing for many people to surrender is their money. Many have thought, “I want to live for God but I also want to earn enough money to live comfortably and retire someday.”

Retirement is not the goal of a surrender life, because it competes with God for the primary attention of our lives. Jesus said, “You cannot serve both God and money,” (Matthew 6:24 NIV)and “Wherever your treasure is, your heart will be also” (Matthew 6:21 NIV).

The supreme example of self-surrender is Jesus. The night before his crucifixion Jesus surrendered himself to God’s plan. He prayed, “Father, everything is possible for you. Please take this cup of suffering away from me. Yet I want your will, not mine” (Mark 14:36 NLT).
Jesus didn’t pray, “God, if you’re able to take away this pain, please do so.” He began by affirming that God can do anything! He prayed, “God, if it is in your best interest to remove this suffering, please do so. But if it fulfills your purpose, that’s what I want, too.”

Genuine surrender says, “Father, if this problem, pain, sickness, or circumstance is needed to fulfill your purpose and glory in my life or in another’s life, please don’t take it away!” This level of maturity doesn’t come easy.In Jesus’ case, he agonized so much over God’s plan that he sweat drops of blood. Surrender is hard work.

In our case, it requires intense warfare against our self-centered nature.

© 2008 Purpose Driven Life. All rights reserved

2009-02-17T11:34:00.006+08:00

Let Go and Let God.

Let God be God.

Be still and know I'm God (Psalms 46:10).

I was wondering what in the world does it mean when God spoke to me all of the above. I was like 'O come on Dad...what the hack you're talking about?" I was thinking about many things. Praying and seeking God. When I'm done with my reflection or my quiet time with God. He showed me one thing after another that I haven't really realised was happening in me.

I was too self-centered. I want some control. I want this. I want that. I think. I thought. After this should come that. An older sister talked to me and for the good she mentioned with love that I've quite a 'BIG' me in me. I dwell in that. Reflected and prayed.

Nevertheless, God is faithful. He spoke through sermon last sunday. Let God be God. Great is His faithfulness. Only in Him that I realised what goes wrong. I apologised thereafter because subconsciously I never realised that I may have been alittle too pushy or taking things in my own stride. It was never really my intention. Forgive me.

What a divine timing when I read the daily devotion.

We aren’t God, and we never will be. We’re humans, and the times when we try to be God are the times we end up most like Satan, who tried to be equal with God, too.We accept our humanity intellectually, but not emotionally. We give mental assent to the idea, but when faced with our own limitations, we react with irritation, anger, and resentment. We want to be taller (or shorter), smarter, stronger, more talented, beautiful, and wealthy. - Rev. Rick Warren

C. S. Lewis observed, “The more we let God take us over, the more truly ourselves we become – because he made us.He invented all the different people that you and I were intended to be. It is when I turn to Christ, when I give up myself to His personality, that I first begin to have a real personality of my own.”

上帝虽然慢，但他不会误事；
往往不是上帝慢，而是我们太急躁，
上帝答应过给你的，他一定会给。
上帝总是不慌不忙，他有的是时间，
而是最佳的时间。

Jedidiah apense

2009-02-16T12:18:00.002+08:00

Things just came one after another last week. Some issues that I gonna pray about. I got diarrhea for couple of days after wednesday and what's more? I got a "pain in the ass", piles.
It was never a good feeling to be a woman alright. Nearly need to use a pad. What a pain in the ass'sssssss.

Just want to vent my fastration and "shout" it out loud...

2009-02-14T21:27:00.002+08:00

2 things the Lord had spoken.

Be Still and know that He is God (Psalms 46:10)

Be Strong and of good courage (Joshua 1:6)

2009-02-11T19:38:00.003+08:00

When things are not within my control or I can't see a possibility ahead. I'll feel that it's troublesome, irritating and I'm pissed off. Not with things or others but myself.

I just feel pissed. What the hack. WAO LAO EH.

I can't find any other words to describle how I feel.

Really WAO LAO EH.

Lesson I've always been learning. Be still and know that He is God.

Think, Do and Live - all with Love

2009-02-06T11:16:00.004+08:00

1 Corinthians 13

The Greatest Gift

1 Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I have become sounding brass or a clanging cymbal. 2 And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3 And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned,[a] but have not love, it profits me nothing.4 Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; 5 does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; 6 does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; 7 bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. 8 Love never fails. But whether there are prophecies, they will fail; whether there are tongues, they will cease; whether there is knowledge, it will vanish away. 9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part. 10 But when that which is perfect has come, then that which is in part will be done away. 11 When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things. 12 For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know just as I also am known. 13 And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love.[NKJV 1 Cor 13]

I was kind of doing reflection. Certain things or rather, many things that were in the past. What was done. I might had 'done alot of things'. I might be 'obedient' in a lot of ways. I might have tried to live a good life. I spoke like one who preach. I teaches others to live a godly way. Been there done that. But, if I have not apprehend this revelation "...have not love, I'm nothing" then what I have been doing, I took the Lord's name in vain.

As apostle Paul had said. Should I speak the the languages of men and angels, having the gift of prophecy and understand much mysteries and knowledge, giving my all to others yet without love, I'm nothing. I had done all in vain.

Be conscious of not what you can do but what Jesus can do through you.

If I'm consicous of what I can do. I do like what a mere man will do.

If I'm conscious that I am able to teach then I will teach like what a man will teach but if I'm consicous of how Jesus had taught me, I will teach just as how Jesus had taught me.

Be conscious of Jesus. Be conscious of His love. Be conscious of what He has been doing. Be conscious of what Jesus had done then I will be conscious of love and love will I live out for others.

"...but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, 14 I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus." [NKJV Philippians 3 : 13b -14]

Jedidiah apense

2009-02-03T12:55:00.002+08:00

Every man understand what it meant by fighting a war himself. He'll feel tired, exhausted both physically and mentally, wounded, morale low, worst still ; He have to keep fighting. Putting on a good front, fighting a good fight even though it will be a losing end. Companions who died along with him, Pride and Ego.

What is pride and ego? Is it any worth? Get a few friends who will fight with you.

2009-02-01T18:55:00.004+08:00

I was having discipleship with my two boys this morning. We talked on the topic of Servanthood. What is a servant? I asked them. Both gave me a political right answer. A Master over him! Said one. Do the things as he has been told or instructed. Said another. What is a godly servant then? I asked again. Cracking both their heads. Serve God.

The difference between a normal servant and a godly servant is about the individual Master whom we served. A normal servant serve the master or do what their told to do but God, however, works through His servants.

God desires a relationship with us. In humility we serve God, putting ourselves down, serving others as though we are a servant. That's precisely what we should do or what Jesus has been doing! He came down as a God and man. He is God. Look, if you do not understand the meaning of God. Flip through Genesis. As a God Himself, He came down to mingle with the sinners, serving them ( Preaching, Healing, Casting out demons, providing fishes, washing the feet of His disciples!) and of course not to mention that He saved us all from the fiery of the fier'ies (Hell).

Jesus mentioned in the bible that

"28 just as the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give His life a ransom for many.” (Matthew 20:28)

He came not to be served but to serve. That's the life protocol of Jesus. He serves and He still does. That's my Jesus. Never ever say when do I serve Man and How do I serve God! If you're serving the very least or rather if you're serving people. You're serving God! (Matthew 25 : 35-40)

Be humble, be willing to be mold, be willing to serve, be willing to love this God.

2009-02-01T17:47:00.002+08:00

Mountain moving faith, a book given by loved one. A fairly good book or rather, it was given at a right time. Read a few pages while I'm traveling down town.

What is faith?

You earned it. You need to 'beg' to get it. You need to fast and pray and ask for it. That's what you think.

People who received Christ always say, "I've no faith.." when this God's given Faith was already in you when you received Christ. Without Faith, you would not have believed and trust in Jesus. It's just a matter of how you exercise this Faith of yours.

2009-01-28T13:11:00.002+08:00

What would you do when you finally see the King of kings?

You entered the castle, protocol followed. Bow before the King. Right?

I saw myself running, running and running faster than I could towards my King. As I approached nearer, I leaped off the ground and jump straight into the arms of my Father. He grabbed hold of me and gave me a few spins. Smiles on our face, a moment to remember.

2009-01-26T20:48:00.004+08:00

You were there. Walking towards that shimmering light ahead. You started running but the more you run, further was that light. It looked as if it was getting smaller, a dimmed dot. Seems like darkness has devour you or perhaps you've been running in the opposite direction, all along? The more you tried to focus on the light, the more distraction there is. Really? Is it the work of the enemy that blinds you or is the light simply not bright enough?

You were confused. You started blaming. You started to look into the problem itself, searching for the cause. You started to blame the enemy and the enemy accused that it's all about you. You seems to have forgotten about the light. You're totally distracted. Seems like all was lost.

Can the dark be greater than the light? Light is seenable in the dark even if it's a tiny dot but can any dark be seen in the presence of the light?

2009-01-24T20:02:00.002+08:00

Hebrews 12:22looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith...

If you are sick, you must know that you are already healed because of the finished work of Christ. Don’t ask, “Do I have enough faith to be healed? Do I have the right kind of faith to be healed? What if I am lacking in faith?” You are focusing on yourself and your faith, instead of Christ and His finished work.

You should be asking, “Did Jesus take away this sickness? If He did, then He must have done a perfect work.” In other words, fix your eyes on Jesus and His perfect work.
AB Simpson, who lived in the 19th century, wrote an article entitled Himself. In it, he mentioned his exhausted nervous system, and broken-down heart which could have proved fatal any time. So he sought the Lord for healing. God showed him Matthew 8:17, which says that Jesus “Himself took our infirmities and bore our sicknesses”.

AB Simpson said that though he believed that Jesus had borne away his sicknesses, he saw many hindrances which stood between him and his healing. And they all boiled down to one thing — his preoccupation with his faith! He had believed that if only he had the “right” kind of faith, he would receive his healing instantly.

He eventually came to the realization that he had to remove that last hindrance — his focus on his faith — and just rest in the finished work of Christ. That revelation marked his complete recovery from his sicknesses.

When you ask yourself, “Do I have enough faith?” you have already put faith as a hindrance between you and Jesus’ finished work. The more you focus on your faith, the more faith slips away. But if you focus on the finished work of Christ and see God’s grace toward you, God sees that as faith! Without realizing it, faith is there in your heart to believe that you will not die of what Christ Himself has already borne away completely for you, and you will see your miracle manifest!

Daily Devotion from
New Creation Church

2009-01-21T13:48:00.002+08:00

Quite a long night till 4.30am but still thank God! God's divine intervention happened just like that! Both me and my colleague were chatting. Not sure how it really goes but the topic that I'm a Christian was brought in. We've a Q&A session! It was a good session of sharing "parables" and sharing him about Christianity! Long and boring yet fruitful night!

Gamble or taking a step of faith?

2009-01-20T14:31:00.004+08:00

When you're entering into a new stage of life. For some, it may seems like putting in a stake of gamble. For some, it's all about taking a step of faith. All seems to be uncertain. Not knowing whether is it a good step to take. Not knowing what lies ahead. Am I making the right choice? Is it good or bad? We just love to dwell in "what if.."

Insecurity came into the hearts of many, troubling them. Turning them into fear and lots of "what if..?" came crawling in. Making the possible to impossible..

What's the point in give much thoughts when out of so many thousands possibilities, there is only one answer?

I hate 'what if thing won't...'

Things will turn out good to those who loves the Lord.

Trusting (Faith) God enough ?

2009-01-08T12:44:00.006+08:00

"I must have faith!" alot will say yet it is only a handful that truely comprehend and do it. What is faith then? Some said that it is a - Trust in someone and believing in that person. Perhaps. Simply, believing that things will work out the way you want it. Maybe. Or rather the Security in you.

1 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. [Hebrew 11:1]

All our wonderful gifts are there. Storing up and waiting for us to claim it. Faith is to simply believe that God had all our wonderful gifts,plans storing and waiting for us to claim it in the 4th dimension! Claim it.

17 So then faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of God. [Romans 10: 17]

When we faced financial needs or fallen sick, illnesses and/or diseases. Usually, we will look into the problems itself. We look into the provisions we lack rather then the provider who provides all these provisions. We will say "I'm lack of cash now. How am I going to live for the next few months!" or "I'm down with cancer, no one can help. Doctor said that there is no cure! I'm going to die.."

Faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of God. When we read the word of God. We get to know God more. When we hear the word of God being preached, our faith grow. When we get to understand how much Jesus had done for us and starts to believe in His finished work and how much He is waiting to give us nothing but the best of life, our faith grows much stronger.

There was this woman mentioned in the bible that she was suffering from bleeding for 12 years ( Mark 5 :25 -34) . She turned to quite a number of doctors in search of a cure but none can ease her of her suffering. Then she heard of Jesus, thinking (Believe/Trust/Having Faith) to herself that if she can touch merely His clothes, she will be heal and after she touched Jesus clothes, she was heal immediately! Praise God!

When she heard of Jesus...(Hear the Word of God). Thinking to herself that if...(Faith). Immediately, she was heal ( Healing ). Yes, hear the word of God and Faith comes and because we believe in Him, things happen! Good things happen! and it happens immediately!When we focus on God, God sees our faith just like the woman who see Jesus, Jesus sees her faith! Amen!

Are we trusting God enough as compared to this woman to believe God will bless us with good health, financially and/or heal us both physically and Spiritually?

Am I trusting Jesus enough?

2008-12-23T10:50:00.002+08:00

A real good week for me! Holiday week! Haha. I'm going home today around 8-10pm because company planning for trekking @ Southern Ridge tomorrow morning! Yeppy! Got a half day off at Christmas Eve =) Friday night? Early off and celebration at Clark Quey! Hehe...

Come next year? Good plans and motivation!

1 Week Break!

2008-12-17T21:05:00.003+08:00

I think I did really spent a good 1 week break though it is all coming to an end in a couple of hours!

- I renovated my room. Giving it a new look. Bought new bed, lightings, computer table, wall shelves!

- A day of fun and relaxation @ Ubin!

- A day @ Kallang leisure park and Changi Airport T3!

- Christmas presents!

Well, perhaps what 'traumatised' me was that I led a group of ladies walking in a wrong direction to 'kallang station' from kallang stadium! Urgh... THIS is my FIRST TIME making such a mistake!

SianZ

让我们Get high!

2008-12-09T12:59:00.004+08:00

Fun day! Went with Eric to buy things for his new house in the morning then followed by a 'small' gathering at Joanne House and a wild night of singing at Party world!

Nerdy Eric

What a small world. RCC gathering @ Ikea

O my, look how hard recession hits! Baby here instead of cradle! =P

Took this very very warming photo!

Mum: Turn right alright? Haa..

Child: Okay! Where's right? Vroomm

Mum: Haha...

Taboo Boardgame. Well, where there's gathering there's boardgame or.. the opposite?

Look at how much fun they have! Taboo and Sabotuers make the day!

Or.. a heart to heart talk if you want. All @ Joanne's House. Hehe.

Woo Hoo! Girls rock! 让我们 Get high! Wild time of singing at Party World! =P

Cheers,

Jedidiah

Align with God

2008-12-04T21:51:00.003+08:00

I'm thankful to God once again, for I'm loved much. Spoke to me alot during prayer meeting. Both Personnal and Calling.

Received a message from Pastor Gabriel this morning.

上帝虽然慢，但他不会误事；
往往不是上帝慢，而是我们太急躁，
上帝答应过给你的，他一定会给。
上帝总是不慌不忙，他有的是时间，
而是最佳的时间。

Amen!

Jedidiah, not forgetting your name is "Loved by the Lord"

2008-11-29T01:42:00.002+08:00

Woke up 6.30am. Get ready my blazer. I'm off to hitch a bus ride to Changi Airport to sent my dear brother Yunjian off to perth. A future pilot to be. Had a wonderful breakfast with his mom, future mom and girlfriend. Haha. A good quality time spent, got to know his momS and I are actually all "Hakka kis" (Same Dialet group) Cheers! A true moment of truth shared from his mom when I had a little talk with her. " I'm happy for my son but abit sad 'la..' because he is staying so far..." I guessed in her heart, she wants to say "...so far from me". A mother's heart. A heart of love for her child. No problem bro, I believed that big sister PF may have learned from your mom to cook all the wonderful dishes just for you when you get back. Cheers =)

A night of battle!

2008-11-28T11:43:00.005+08:00

Let me tell you an anecdote of 3 big men and me on a monday night. They were doing some '4 spring' cleaning in a old shabby shed. Why "4 Spring"? Because it took them 4 years before they start tidying up that old, stinky shed! The smell was unique'ly overwhelmed man! The foul odour conjures of roaches, 1 big rat, rat leftover foods, birds and rat "poo poo" and gosh.. it's better to close down the shed, let it rot. Why bothered to clean only after 4 years!

Well, it's also through this tidying up time that I find out the 3 big men were afraid of roaches and their "ka kis" Haha!

Well, seems like I'm the only one who was not afraid. Not a tiny bit. Battling all the way, drawing out my sword *Broom* and *chin chiang chang chin*!

I'm the man. Cheers.
Hahaha...

I'm a Child of the Most High! (1)

2008-11-24T21:24:00.004+08:00

In NKJV John 1, "12 But as many as received Him, to them He gave the right to become children of God, to those who believe in His name: 13 who were born, not of blood, nor of the will of the flesh, nor of the will of man, but of God."

Many times a day, I would think of this verse. Pondering over why God will say "...He gave the right to become children of God"? He could have said "But as many as received Him, they are children of God." Why then? So we still get to choose not to become Children of God after we have received Him? In KJV, it's written "...to them gave he power to become sons of God" Power (ἐξουσία exousia) refers to authority, right, privilege.

In the good old days, relationship with God was broken because of sin. Well, thanks to our first man whos name was Adam for being "dumb". His very beautiful wife Eve ( If she's not beautiful, who else?) had an 'interesting' dialog session with the serpent. Just imagine "Ah-dumb" was sitting beside listening to his wife talking to the serpent and serpent talking back to his wife and to the serpent and to the wife again and "Ah-dumb" was being dumb! He was keeping quiet all along! Apple was eaten, sin came in and a perfect relationship with God was broken.

By one man mistake, sin came in and death approaches but by one 'man' love, sin was taken and life is saved. Because of this One Man and God, Jesus Christ, who bore our sins on the cross and died so we may live. Who was striped so we may get healed. Who was crowned with crown of thorns so we may be crowned with crown of Glory. Who was clothe with unrighteousness so we may be clothe with Righteousness. Who called on God on the cross so we may call God our Father.

It is because All authority, power and might has been given to Jesus because of what He has done for us that we who believed and received Him as our Lord are given the authority, right and privilege to become the Children of God.

2008-11-24T08:47:00.002+08:00

If I asked for the wisdom of men, I get wisdom from men.
If I asked for the wisdom of God, I get wisdom from God.
If I asked for an answer from men, I get answers.
If I asked for an answer from God, I get an answer from God.

Why will I get wisdom from men when I should get from the One who gives wisdom?
Why will I choose to get many different answers from men when I can received one perfect answer from God?

If I seek comfort from men, I'll received temporal comfort
If I seek comfort from God, I'll received eternal comfort
If I seek the face of men, I can't see what lies behind him
If I seek the face of God, I can see what He has already done

Comparing a temporal and eternal which will I choose? If I seek the face of men, many schemes or thoughts I do not know but I seek the face of Him and I know what He has done for me long ago. Why should I do do and do when everything was done done and done.

Jedidiah Apense

2008-11-12T13:40:00.004+08:00

Perhaps, the most wonderful thing in life is when you have a hope. A hope that you can cling on or focus on. I've been savoring the goodness of the Lord ever since His truth sank in deep my heart. I'm beginning to learn more and more new things, good things of course.

Embrace Wisdom like embracing a woman.

I learnt much that wisdom in the bible is comparable to a woman. That you need to love, understands, embrace her just like loving, understanding and embracing a woman! Two chapters of verses in the proverbs (Book of Wisdom).

"13 Happy is the man who finds wisdom, And the man who gains understanding; 14 For her proceeds are better than the profits of silver, And her gain than fine gold. 15 She is more precious than rubies, And all the things you may desire cannot compare with her. 16 Length of days is in her right hand, In her left hand riches and honor. 17 Her ways are ways of pleasantness, And all her paths are peace. 18 She is a tree of life to those who take hold of her, And happy are all who retain her." [NKJV Proverbs 3:13-18]

"5 Get wisdom! Get understanding! Do not forget, nor turn away from the words of my mouth. 6 Do not forsake her, and she will preserve you; Love her, and she will keep you. 7 Wisdom is the principal thing; Therefore get wisdom. And in all your getting, get understanding. 8 Exalt her, and she will promote you; She will bring you honor, when you embrace her. 9 She will place on your head an ornament of grace; A crown of glory she will deliver to you" [NKJV Proverbs 4:5-9]

Noticing in the above verses.

Wisdom provides Happiness [3: 13&18b]!
Wisdom is Precious than anything [ 3: 14-15]!
Wisdom provides Health, Wealth and Honour [ 3: 16]!
Wisdom is Pleasantness and Peace [ 3: 17]!
Wisdom is the tree of Life [ 3:18]!

I loved Chapter 4 description of Wisdom. In Chapter 3, it speaks of what is Wisdom and what Wisdom provides. In Chapter 4, it tells you the attitude towards Wisdom. Here, it talks about Wisdom is the principle thing and we are to get Wisdom!

Wisdom is comparable to a woman that we should LOVE, EXHALT and EMBRACE her. Just like a woman, when I love her, she will slowly open up and began to tell me more about herself! I once heard of an interesting analogy about a pastor and his wife. He said his wife always brings 'honour' to her husband. She is wise and always speaks words of Wisdom to him and when he coveys the message or ideas to people around him. He will always received feedbacks like "Pastor, that a brillant idea!" and he will goes *Deep husky voice* "Well, thank you..." Haha! He said his wife gave him all the honour! Ha! ~~I need a wise woman too.~~ I need wisdom! Cheers =P

2008-11-10T09:59:00.002+08:00

Irritating! What happened to my blog! I can't upload any photos!

Good weekend, saturday was a day of celebration for my family! We have a new member! My cousin wedding. Tiring but sweet moments. It's always good to see couples getting hitch and wedd. For my cousin and my biao shao, gosh...they have been together since secondary school and behold! This lady stands 1.83m , in case you do not know what "m" stands for, metres. My biao sao is one TALL lady.

Getting hitch takes two, falling in love takes two, getting married takes two but when you're in a marriage, that's when 2 became 1.

When you're in a marriage, it is not the end of courtship but a start.

2008-11-07T19:44:00.001+08:00

Alright, Senator Barrack Obama has won the President election and he is the first African-American President of the United States of America now. Well, I do admired him for his charisma and being a much engaging ‘speaker’ than John McCain.

A good leader depends not just how good his inspirational speeches were given or giving hope to his people but turning them into reality. He makes it happen.

Right now, it’s a time to see if this good ‘speaker’ turns to a great Leader. Let’s see how he’ll come up with good strategies to recover the economy in the States now and a better America in the future.

2008-10-31T20:36:00.008+08:00

Discerning the word of God is so much important for a Christian. The bible is a book, an extraordinary book full of Grace, Wisdom, Wondrous Blessing and promises of God! Amen! Recently, I picked up a book and watched sermons by Pastor Joseph Prince of New Creation Church and boy, he is one blessed preacher who preach with authority,accurately and powerfully the word of God! I'm very ministered and humbly learning a lot from God through him.

Perhaps, when we know so much of the bible that sometimes we forgotten about the Grace of God.

"4 But God, who is rich in mercy, because of His great love with which He loved us, 5 even when we were dead in trespasses, made us alive together with Christ (by grace you have been saved), 6 and raised us up together, and made us sit together in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, 7 that in the ages to come He might show the exceeding riches of His grace in His kindness toward us in Christ Jesus. 8 For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, 9 not of works, lest anyone should boast. 10 For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand that we should walk in them. "(Ephesians 2)

How much do we understand about the Grace of God then? In verse 8, it says that the grace of God is a gift. A gift is free and free means that there are no money involvement or things with equal value to exchange with right? It's given to you just like that! It's a gift from God!

Paul reminded us that it is by grace that we are saved through faith, not of ourselves or how much we do to earn this grace but it is a gift from God. No matter how many charity works we do, being nice to others, donations, etc, we can not earn this grace of God. But only simply believing in His one and only begotten son Jesus Christ who bore our sin on the cross, died for us and resurrected and those who believed in Him shall not perish but have eternal life!

Heard about it many times? It's hard to digest if we do not fully understand the grace of God. All of us who believed in this resurrected God of ours fall under the New Covenant of Grace and not the old covenant of Laws. Laws kill but Grace lives.

I believed that many gone through the many same stages like I do? In the past, even though I believed in Jesus Christ. I still falls into the the old covenant of Laws many time. The devil will strike me with words like " Oh no, you just lied you know? Remember the Thou Shall not lie? " Taking the tablets going around knocking my head and reminding me of my sin! I'll then go around begging God for forgiveness. Fast and pray thinking that by doing this and picking out verses from the bible and claiming it, will then God forgive or much appeased with me. The devil knows the bible better than you and I do and is an expert in twisting it. By hearing that, I feel condemned and guilt is so much upon me. I feel so strongly that I ought to beg God for forgiveness.

I was focusing so much on the law, thinking I've done something so sinful that God will forgive me only if I asked of God. I have forgotten about the grace of God which is Jesus Christ! Who died on the cross for all my sins. My past, present and future sin! You know something? It is really a revelation from God through the Pastor book that I am reminded of how great is our God's forgiveness. Jesus gave it all. One truth is that I do not need to go around begging God for forgiveness when He has already forgiven me! I confess my sin because God has already forgiven me and not the other way around! I do not need to feel condemned or guilty so much that I must do many things to seek God for forgiveness. I'm already forgiven!

Satan the devil is not a murderer, robber, serial killer but an accuser.

"Middle English, from Old English, from Late Latin Satn, from Greek Satanas, Satn, from Hebrew n, devil, adversary, from an, to accuse, act as adversary; see n in Semitic roots"

The profession of the devil is to do accusation. Making us feeling down, demoralise, guilty and condemns us when we does something wrong (sin). Mind you, he is an expert in that. We'll feel so sinful that we feel God is so much a distant from us, when God is always right beside us. Know the truth, read the bible!

"1Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus,[a] 2because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death. 3For what the law was powerless to do in that it was weakened by the sinful nature,[b] God did by sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful man to be a sin offering.[c] And so he condemned sin in sinful man,[d] 4in order that the righteous requirements of the law might be fully met in us, who do not live according to the sinful nature but according to the Spirit." ( Romans 8)

Should we feels condemned then? It is written in the bible that there is NOW no condemnation for those in Christ Jesus! Now means now! not later nor before but NOW. Will God condemns you when you make a mistake? Come on, each time God looks at His son. He will say your sins I remember no more! God has already condemn all sins in the body of Christ once and for all!

That doesn't mean we can go around and 'sin' our guts out alright. I doubted we'll fall into temptation that easily if we truely understand how much Jesus had done for us on the cross and had received this grace. Yes, there are times that we may fall because of our sinful nature but none of our 'moments of foolishness' or 'mistakes' gonna robbed us of the righteousness that Jesus had clothe us with! We're always righteous in the eyes of God by the blood of Jesus! If you think that because of your sin, you are thus not righteous. Then, it is the same as telling God that even by the blood of Jesus, the Son of God is worth little and had no power over sin?

Jedidiah a pense

2008-10-27T15:21:00.003+08:00

I received a message from my disciple last night. Asking me how to define Righteousness. How to be one? He thought that righteousness comes by reading more of God's words, pray more, doing alot of 'holy stuffs'! But I said "You're declared righteous by the blood of Jesus already!"

I supposed many other believers may have the same thinking? You thought by doing alot of good and disciplined things like reading the bible daily, having a good prayer life, making sure that you do not sin, treating others well and good, for doing all these, you've attained or being credited as righteousness. Is this so? Let us look at what the Book of Romans 3 : 21-25 then :

"21 But now the righteousness of God apart from the law is revealed, being witnessed by the Law and the Prophets, 22 even the righteousness of God, through faith in Jesus Christ, to all and on all[h] who believe. For there is no difference; 23 for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, 24 being justified freely by His grace through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus, ..."

Does God credit us with righteousness only when we fulfilled certain things? What if we can't fulfill because of our sinful nature? Oh! Sarks, I forgotten to read the bible,I've sinned. I'm not righteous. Oh! I've always not been praying for others,I've sinned. I'm not righteous. Oh! I cursed that man who irritated me then and all the more I've sinned! I'm not righteous. That's what you think!

"22 even the righteousness of God, through faith in Jesus Christ, to all and on all[h] who believe..."

Righteousness is to and on you through your Faith in Jesus Christ when you believed Him! Amen!

Many of us feels CONDEMED when we can't fulfill certain things. You thought our God is an angry God when we does wrong things. You thought our God will zap us with lightning or bad consequences/things will fall on us when we sinned. You thought "Perhaps I get illnesses, diseases is because I've sinned." Boy..YOU're not under the LAW of GOD but the GRACE of God!

"1 There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus,[a] who do not walk according to the flesh, but according to the Spirit. 2 For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus has made me free from the law of sin and death." [Romans 8: 1-2]

All the "Thou shall not..." have been fulfilled by Christ Jesus (Matt 5:17) when He died on the cross for our sin and resurrected! You see, do you really think you can fulfilled the Ten Commandments? No! Read Matt 5: 21-48. Jesus said, even the slightest thought of evil is sin! Once, I heard from a friend that scientists had done an experiment and find out that a normal human being have approximately 50,000 thoughts a day. Gosh! you and I would have long gone to meet satan in hell if you believed in the Laws! It's because we can not fulfill it! Thus Christ came and died on the cross for our Past, Present and Future sin!

Jesus came to give us life! An Abundant life!

"10 The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly. " [ John 10:10]

Yes, the devil came to give us negative thoughts. Influence us by saying things like " Oh no, U've sinned again... God is displeased with sin...God is displeased with you..." The devil come to bind you with the laws. The devil come to make comdemnation. Wait wait wait! Remember that you're not condemed anymore!? (Romans 8:1) You're free from all these because of what Jesus had done for you!

Jesus came to fulfill the law so we will not feel condem any more. Jesus came so we can have an abundant life. Jesus came so we may receive the wonderful blessings He have for us! So open up your heart, for God is always there ready to embrace you!

One revelation I got when I read a book. He spoke something like
"We don't have to confess our sin inorder to be forgiven. We confess our sin because we are already been forgiven!"

Amen!

Nights in Rodanthe

2008-10-27T12:00:00.002+08:00

A 3 storey shabby, decripit Inn in Rodanthe, a tiny coastal town in North Carolina. Very beautiful sea view at the door of the Inn and desert like landscape at it's back. Comes Adrienne Willis, a good friend of Jean the owner of the Inn and the only guest Dr.Paul Flanner who will be staying over the next 4 days. What comes next? Hurricans comes, Anger comes, Past comes, Bickering comes, Understanding comes, Loves comes and then Hope comes for the both divorcees, followed by a sad ending. Quite a nice romance movie for couples especially. Starring Richard Gere and Diane Lane. No doubt Richard Gere have been the top most charming ~~aged~~ guy! His eyes just called the shots. Nicholas Sparks is the author of Message in a Bottle, The Rescue, A Walk to Remember, Nights in Rodanthe, The Notebook, and A Bend in the Road,etc. I watched a couple of movies that was made from many of his books. 3 main similarities. Romance, Hope and death.

Daily Updating

2008-10-24T20:55:00.003+08:00

I like reading the newspaper and watching news online (CNN/BBC) to keep me updated on what's happening around the world. Well, it's interesting to know many things or events going on. News like the French President Nicolas Sarkozy who gotten himself a beautiful model wife 2-3 months back or being targeted as a "voodoo" doll just 2 days ago? Senator Obama VS Senator John McCain debate in the States President election *Obama Obama Obama!* Okays, Senator Obama have the charisma alright. An "Urgent Leave" back home to see his granny who is sick? True story of showing filial or another propaganda? Oh! COE just dropped by half! S$7000+. Oil Price cost $67 per barrel and Fuel prices dropped too! but isn't it dropping little too slow? Raised the prices almost immediately when inflation came but prices not lowered any faster when things are almost turning back to normal. It's really interesting to find out what's happening around the world. Sections I don't read, sports and classified. Ha.

What's with the world right now?

2008-10-20T19:37:00.002+08:00

2 weeks ago. I saw 2 pair of young "couples" hugging, doing some hangy panky right infront of me. No no, infront of me while I'm in a bus stop. No no no, infront of me with lots of passerby in a bus stop! What's more? They are wearing my secondary school uniform! What's with kids right now?! I can't stand the sight of it. *I nearly Roar at them*

Hey, cool down huh... The kids are lost. That's why.. They are misled by the worldly teaching of 'love'. That's what came into me after I prayed. Well, do something about it then. Not just the teen's and youth but many people are still wanderers in this world.

Have Faith, Pray and Action.

Places I want to go!

2008-10-15T13:26:00.001+08:00

United States, England, France, Germany, Swiss, Italy, Australia, Japan... grass on the other side,greener. Well, maybe? Air fresher. Maybe? or like the chinese saying, the moon is rounder! Maybe? It's good to go for vacations.Well, that's when you have the spending power! It's NOT CHEAP to travel to far away land.

Well, I like to visit many countries too. (Especially after hearing many of the wonderful experiences from friends/Newspaper/Magazines!) Well, perhaps the first stop I would really want to go is England Hyde park! Participating in the yearly Crossroad music festival featuring Eric Clapton, John mayer, Sheryl Crow and many of the other skillful blues and rock musicians! Well then, follow on to Germany Munich 16 days Oktoberfest festival where all just drink, sing and dance! Hmm, time for some R&R to Swiss Alps for some sceneric view of the mountians and landscape in Swizterland..cool weather huh. Before it 'sink' to the bottom, venice the Italian Water City which is considered the most beautiful city! Last stop? Japan. Feasting all the fresh and delicious seafoods in Hokkaido! Yummy yum yum! *Drooling...

Arh... it's good to dream sometimes.

Be contented,
Jedidiah

2008-09-30T12:58:00.002+08:00

I ought to give thanks to God for yesterday! God did answered my prayers by giving me an opportunity to share the Good news to one of my colleague! Yippy =) Had supper at 3.30am in the morning after work. Salty Fried Beef Kway Diao. Taste not bad but it's definiately too salty for me, yuks... I'm looking forward for my Holiday on Wednesday and leave on Friday! Yea! O gosh, Media Corp will be coming to take shoots on my Bro Wedding this sat! Ha!

KLEMENT! My bro! At Last you're back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yes bro, we goona feast out on Friday most probably! Gentleman...Starts your engine....voooom. **Pls get ur car ready for much efficiency!** haha!~

2008-09-28T10:50:00.002+08:00

Different people have different views on topic of prayer.

For some,

Prayer is a conversation with God.

Prayer is seeking God; especially when one is desperately in need

Prayer is a routine order

Prayer is a relief from mental stress

Prayer gives hope

It goes on and on. Ask anyone on the street and they will gives you different perspective on prayer. As a Christian, I asked myself this same question almost every moment. What is a prayer?

For me, Prayer is having an intimate conversation with God (Building a relationship, rapport, knowing God more) and a given authority to me by God, asking/allowing God to intervene in my life and to intercede for others.

Prayers requires faith because you're praying to a God who is unseen, placing all your burdens, needs, wants, desires,thoughts,job, family; all of you to God. Believing that things will works well and for the good for those who loves God.

It's so simple to pray. Infact, anyone can pray but knowing how to pray according to the will of God, selfless prayer. That requires alot more consistent prayer life, teaching, discipline and most important, humility.

Jedidiah A pense

Isaiah 55: 8-9, Romans 8:28, 31

2008-09-25T14:53:00.008+08:00

8 "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the LORD.
9 "As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts. [ Isaiah 55:8-9]

So what is God's ways and thoughts then? Being someone who is logical, I can never fathom the depth of God's ways and thoughts. In fact, no one does. It doesn't really matters whether am I too logical, someone stupid or intellectual, with high IQ or not. We won't be able to understand many things that are falling in place or things we are going through now till the day God chose to reveal to us. If I could spend time thinking of the many possibilities in life, shouldn't I wait till God reveal to me? When out of the many possibilities I could think of, there is only one possible answer. A wonderful plan that God had prepared for me.

11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. [Jeremiah 29:11]

Since last week, when I started to dedicate many of my time just to pray. God spoke to me alot. As I prayed, I could feel the presence of God so strongly. I began to reflect on many things in life.

- So what's about my calling? What can I do to prepare for that big vision I've seen?

- My families salvation? how can I start to share? what can I do? How should I pray then? How can I break many of the negative thoughts, traditional thinking, ways, habits?

- In my work now, how can I share the Gospel? What can I do other then pray? Initiative, how should I go about it? How can I built a deeper rapport with my colleagues?

- Should I study for a degree? What degree then? Arts and social science which I think could have help me later on? Degree in electronics which could help me in my work now?

- Other than prayers, few Msn chat, smses, what can I do as a leader that my sheeps will turn back to God? How do I teach?

- For Adult cell, how can the word of God reach deeply into their hearts? What can motivate them to read more of God's words? How can they share more of their life testimony? How can they be more revived in the Spirit of God?

- For the Church, how can strong help the weak to grow in faith, love and hope?

- It is important that I pray for a helper in my life. So how can I pray then?

These are some questions that I started to reflect while I prayed to God. It's really amazing how God leads and guide me along the way. I know many of what I should do, right thing to do of course. Some things I know that it requires me alot of courage to step in faith and just do it. I'm slowly beginning to understand the words that Bro Daniel Seet and Sister Mary( who told me to do the right things, 1 year back] and Bro Eric who had given me Romans 8:28 through God.

28And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him,[a] who[b] have been called according to his purpose. [Romans 8:28]

31What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us? 32He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? [Romans 8:31-32]

By doing the right things in life, I know that many of the sacrifices I will make, jibes from people I will see and persecutions I will face. But it doesn't really matters to me, for I know that Jesus gave it all. So if God is for me, who can be against me?

Jedidiah A Pense

Tool's storeman!

2008-09-19T12:50:00.003+08:00

I'm in toolstore yesterday night. Taking care of all the tools. Well, tools store is busy during booking in/out of tools only so I got lots of time in between! How to spend wisely then? I read a book, drew up plan of the goals in my life, make new friends from other trade and pray! Praise the Lord! I get to know a friend who was once a christian, time to share!

Upon doing my reflection. I began to reflect on the 3 visions God shown me over 4 years in Renewal.

- I saw myself sitting on my current sofa in my home. In front of me are a group of young kids 5-7? I'm holding a bible then, teaching the word of God.

- I saw myself on stage in renewal (Wearing white long sleeve shirt and black pant), preaching the word of God

- Now, a much bigger crowd then the 大圣殿 in korea. I'm preaching the word of God much boldly, with authority and confidently.

My faith has grown much more. I see bigger things and I'm going to be used by God to do bigger things (Jer 33:3)

Psalms 37:4 has been a verse I'm holding on this week. Delight in the Lord and the Lord shall give you the desires of your heart.

I'm encourged and really appreciated a message of encouragement yesterday from verse 1 chronicles 16:11. Thank you much much!

Hectic week!

2008-09-18T11:37:00.004+08:00

Time for detachment equals time for more work! This week has been a busy week for my flight. Lots of checks and rectifications needed to be done. Learnt quite alot though these few days. Oh well, it's the experiences that count. It is so so tiring. Reached home today at 0445 hrs. Yes, 04.45am! Had wasted lots of time. We scoured the seat 2 days ago just to look for a debris that drop in the seat! Gosh... and yesterday we had to rectify a problem from 4 pm till 4am! Busy Busy Busy week! So what is it again later!?

It was really sweet and nice of my granny! Few days ago, I just told her that I got a weight drop (78 to 74) even though I haven't been excercising! So out of concern and love from her, she made soup for me over the past few days! She kept saying " 来，快吃。我煮了猪肝汤。补血。冷了不好吃！”She had to kept asking me to drink the soup because I'll procrastinate when it comes to food. Lazy bum. Haha. Love ya much much granny!

PlanningS!

2008-09-16T10:35:00.003+08:00

- Christmas presentation items for family

- Thailand trip

- Teachings on prayer

- Discipleship

- Raymond Loy's wedding

Sarks! So many plans needed to do! But, I love it. Ha. I loved to plan, good one though. =) Alrights, gonna keep me alittle busy. At least..

Great weekends!

2008-09-14T22:11:00.002+08:00

Woo hoo! Had a great weekends! Went to Sihui's house for a small gathering and stayed over night. Good time of interaction with my dear brothers and sisters, not forgetting the delicious shooms spaghetti Eric cooked for us! Just felt that it was really a warm and homely invitation by Sihui! Thank You! May the Lord bless you when you welcome gathering at your home!

Had a wonderful worship during teen's service yesterday. I was engaged in worshiping the Lord! I love singing praises to God! A short teaching from Esther on topic of Forgiveness. Good illustrations and game. Praise the Lord! We had a new soon-to-be member, Daryl! Ha. Blessed time. Yes, I just felt that it was a blessed time by the Lord during our cell yesterday. Had a good time crapping, updating from each other, sharing of personal experience(s) and of course emphasising and giving ideas on how to reconcile a relationship; be it family members or friends. Though I was tired, very tired infact but I still went out with my brothers. Just a simple meal but it's the frostering of relationship that I cared about. Same thing, I had a good time with my brothers.

Great time today with my cell today! A big thank you to you Est! *Applause* Ha. You just shown a generous side of your's by treating cell a meal at TCC because of your birthday! Taboo taboo taboo. Ha. A whole day of Taboo card games! I saw a better bonding between the cell! Well, just a small R&R for the cell before examination. Do hoped everyone enjoyed today! Cheers!

Love starts in a family!

2008-09-08T19:57:00.002+08:00

I've been doing some personal reflection over the past 2 days especially after the 2040 sermon from my SP and of course after the birthday celebration. Family. Love. Salvations. Perhaps it's time I should make a change.

Love of God will definitely flows into my family.

This coming season. A season of Love and giving. I'll see wonderful things that gonna happen in my family! and I gonna make it happen.

06 September 2008

2008-09-06T23:10:00.002+08:00

Went for flag day yesterday. Had quite a fun time asking for donation. It's only through this kind of activity that I got to meet different kind of people! Yes! All kind of people. Some pretended and just sway away, some acted as if they wanted to donate but not!, worst still... some asked lot of questions but no action at all! Of course there were some kind hearted and encouraging souls around. Not many but may God bless them for each of their small and big donations.

After 2040 service. Some of us went for Esther's 21st birthday. I think many have a fun time there mingled with friends, playing 'dong chark' game, taking photos. Perhaps it's the first time that I went to a 21st birthday party. Well, I felt that it was really a heart warming celebration as I see lots of her relatives and close friends celebrating her 21st birthday with her. It seems like " Hey girl! We've all come to celebration this important day! A day you're grown from a young girl to an adult, a woman! Woo hoo! " No happening things like throwing the birthday person into the pool or drinking till you get hang over next day or doing other crazy things. Nope. Just a simple gathering, thanksgiving from a simple heart and simple photos taking. When I saw her taking photos with her family. There were lots of reflections in me then. I felt that it was so heart warming. A very blessed time. Blessed family.

Rhema

2008-09-06T08:44:00.002+08:00

Words of the Lord is Rhema to me when I read daily bread just now.

September 6, 2008
Do Your Best And Leave The Rest
ODB RADIO: Listen Now DownloadREAD: 1 Thessalonians 5:14-24
He who calls you is faithful, who also will do it. —1 Thessalonians 5:24

Have you at some time found yourself under extreme pressure? Have there been episodes in your life when you were so burdened by tasks and responsibilities that there was simply no breathing space to prepare for your service to God?

That was the experience of a pastor by the name of A. J. Gossip. During one hectic week, he didn’t have his customary amount of time to prepare his sermon. As he walked to his pulpit that Sunday morning, he felt guilty about the scanty sermon notes in his hand. It seemed that the Lord was asking him, “Is this the best you could do for Me this week?” And Gossip honestly replied, “Yes, Lord, it is my best.” He told a friend later that Jesus took that ill-prepared piece of work and in His hands “it became a trumpet” to his congregation.

The apostle Paul encouraged the Thessalonians to give their all for God (1 Thess. 5:14-22). They were to exhort, warn, comfort, rejoice, pray, and express their gratitude to God—among other things. We too should always do our best in our Christian life and service. But when pressure-periods come and we just don’t have the time we feel we need, we should do the best we can and then prayerfully trust God’s faithfulness (v.24). — Vernon C. Grounds

Give of your best to the Master,
Give Him first place in your heart;
Give Him first place in your service,
Consecrate every part. —Grose

Be faithful—and leave the results to God.

While I'm reading the daily bread just now. I think and reflect at the same time. Especially, my week. Yes, there were worship, praise and prayers. But have I done enough? Enough in doing but not enough in listening. Thank God for the revelation.

Family Day!

2008-09-06T00:27:00.002+08:00

Good day! Today was CAB Family Day so all of us had our stand down and we all went down to Downtown East Wild wild Wet! Wooh Hooo! *Splash Splash Splash!* I bet they had lots of 'wild' time there! As for me, I'm not involved or should I say I choose not to be involve? Not really a 'water' person.Ha.

Proceed to AirForce Museum thereafter for my Post NDP Logistic dinner! 3pm for dinner? Hmm, that's how my organisation works.Ha! Before that, I tried going down to Driving Centre to get my PDL and gosh! was there so many peeps. I can't get it because I need to rush down for the dinner! so sad =( Had a good catching up session with my NDP colleagues! Arhhh, those were the days when we had to carry 60 polars bottles (20 litres = 20kg) up 60 steps! Approx 6 times!
12000 bottles of new waters? many benches and tables (all metal k!) Great job guys! Our effort not wasted because we received great commendations from all! CDF (Chief of Defence Force) some more!

Glup...!

2008-09-03T13:18:00.003+08:00

I'm totally stunned by what I saw yesterday! Well, great time working with my colleagues. End work around 12.30am then we proceed to bedok area for supper! Had a piece of kosong and egg prata =) Yummy yum yum! I thought what I had was quite alot already BUT I was totally stunned by what I saw! Two of my colleagues are really great eaters, PIGS! Haha. One had a plate of oily fried indian noodles followed by 2 teh tarik and a piece of egg prata. Another had 2 kosong 1 egg prata, 1 teh tarik and a plate of oily fried noodles! Mind you...it's 1.30am!! Told you guys... I'm gonna blog you 'pigs'! Haha...; )

My First Night Shift

2008-09-02T12:10:00.002+08:00

Thought I could have enjoyed my first night shift yesterday but I'm not! No work at all! Due to some problem with one of the plane. My team of colleagues have to move to another base to do work! What could be worst? I caught Flu Virus! I was sneezing ALL the WAY. Ahhhh Chooooo!!! Mucus was flowing out like river of water man! Arh!!! All I do was to wait for time to pass, read my BTT and a book. Reached home at 2.15am.

Wonderful weekends!

2008-08-31T23:20:00.003+08:00

Really thank the Lord for my wonderful weekends! Went to church yesterday for the BOGAME (Boardgames Day) organised by RYM (Renewal Youth Ministry), was late though because of guitar lesson with Moses. Well, did not participated in any games during the whole session but I had a great time catching up with some of my brothers and sisters! Ha.

Night was a time of fun! Adult cells had a combine gathering at Irene's place. Had steamboat and a great time of Taboo. Thanks to Junming, we get to play this game! Taboo is a word guessing game with 5 restricted words that the describer cannot say! Alright, let me say tell u the greatest moment. There was this petite sister who had her turn to be the describer and so she started describing ... She described that "we all wear" or something like that... [ all of us were thinking it might be undergarments! and so all the *Bra *Panties * Underwear * shouting here and there! ] She kept on describing and then she said something like "
someone smaller than me have to wear that!" and Behold!! A exciteful shouting from Irene " Push up! Maximiser! ". All of us had a great laugh till we all went home! Hahaha...

Had a great time just now! Went for comex and managed to get a 300gb potable hard drive at 125 bucks! Well, great company quality time!

RSAF Day!

2008-08-29T09:07:00.002+08:00

Well, today is a stand down for my base. Stand down means "Free from work". Ha. I'm free today! Yeah! RSAF 40th Anniversary! Think it'll be a good time to go for the Open House as all the planes and choppers will be stationed there. What's more? We can take pictures with it! Going at 12 later =)

Words

2008-08-25T19:14:00.004+08:00

Recently, I've been praying quite alot. While I'm praying and spending time doing reflection of my life. "Words" struck me. I mean words from our mouth, tone of voice, blessing and even cursed. Since at a very young age, I find that I'm always very sensitive to word and the tone of voice . I take every words seriously and take it to heart. I knew the importance of words but never do I know that every words from our tongue brings 'power'.

In the book of James in the Bible

[ 3When we put bits into the mouths of horses to make them obey us, we can turn the whole animal. 4Or take ships as an example. Although they are so large and are driven by strong winds, they are steered by a very small rudder wherever the pilot wants to go. 5Likewise the tongue is a small part of the body, but it makes great boasts. Consider what a great forest is set on fire by a small spark. 6The tongue also is a fire, a world of evil among the parts of the body. It corrupts the whole person, sets the whole course of his life on fire, and is itself set on fire by hell. ] James 3 : 3 -6

Personally, I'm very ministered by what Apostle James had written. He gave a very clear example of how powerful that little tongue of ours could do. He used few examples. By comparing our tongue to a "Bit" and "Small Rudder".

A bit is a metal mouthpiece of a bridle used commonly on horses to control and direct the horse. Imagining with a small mouthpiece, we can control and direct such a big domesticated animal! By pulling a little left, the big guy will turn left and by pulling a little right he will move right or you gave him a little pull back, he will stop! Amazing isn't it? Move it! *Gi di ya!* Halt!

Ships are large with big sail and like what Apostle James had said, it's driven by strong winds! But it's not enough just to move forward! Ships need rudder, a small rudder will do. It's to control and direct the ship.

What are the similarities then? Both talked about controlling and directing. Right. But it doesn't stop here. Both "Bit" and "Small rudder" are small objects used together with big animal and big ships and yet with it small 'size', they are able to control and direct animals or things much bigger their size!

[9With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in God's likeness. 10Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers, this should not be.] James 3: 9- 10

With a word, God created the heaven and earth. With a word, God set apart day and night. With a word, God created man and woman in His image. With a word, God bless and said it was good. When God say something, it happened. We're created in God's image. Do you know what that means then? Our words are powerful. Should we speak with wisdom and praise, it brings healing and blessing but if we are not careful with our words, it brought forth cursed and even destruction.

I was a victim. Why I couldn't speak well or dare to speak up or even sing was because I was hurt during my teenage years. My mum would gave negative comments about my voice each time I sing. Saying things like I do not have a nice voice, I better not sing,etc. Once, Twice, Thrice. So as time goes by, I began to doubt about my voice. I don't feel confident at all or rather, I hated it whenever I faced events/situations that requires me to talk. E.g: Presentations, Oral, Socialising, not to mention about singing. I'll doubt too if people say that I sing or speak well. I'll think that they are all lying to me!

Furthermore, I hated CNY too. Never once have I enjoyed my CNY especially from my mother side. I was hurt by my father. While talking with my aunty about educations [my cousin is from RI] my father said one thing that I never forget since then. " My son is stupid ... useless ... how to compare?" Well done. What a thing to say. It maybe a very "Chinese" thing to you but it do caused a lot of hurt and cursed on me then.

Of course, I'm fully healed of my hurt by God's grace and I'm slowly learning to forgive my dad for what he had said. Well, having to understand and know how powerful our word is. Let's speak forth words of blessing. Let words from our tongue be of blessing, healing, encouraging, motivating, prophesy, grace, love and truth.

Starts Shift work lo!

2008-08-25T18:18:00.003+08:00

Just received a call that I'm starting shift work from now on. Next week, night shift!!!

Formula for *Night shift*.

*Night Shift* = (Prayer meetings + Worship practise + Night activities) / 2

Wao lao eh! Haha. Well, need sometime to adjust to it!

Woke up real early today. 5.30am! Took a cab down to Tengah Airbase and gosh... it was a long ride! 40mins! Crazy, asked someone from Tampines to reach TAB at 7am in the morning. I don't even have a first bus at 4.45am! Ha. Spend my morning there, doing the RSAF open house a favor. Well, still alright because I've gotten a half day! =)

O my, I've to reach TAB at 6.30am on Thursday! Eekkkkkk

Bible Challenge!

2008-08-24T22:17:00.002+08:00

Had a great time yesterday. God blessed much! I enjoyed serving the Lord as a guitarist during teen's service yesterday. God's presence was there! My boys and I enjoyed the Bible challenge thereafter. Had a really enjoyable time "pushing" my younger bros and sisS, encouraging them to participate in the activities! Ha. It's kind of funny to see my boys wanting to participate in the activities and yet they are procrastinating! Shy perhaps =) Still young afterall. It's amazing how God blessed yesterday and today's worship. I do not know about others but I'm engaged and ministered in all Worship sessions that includes Teen's Service. WELL, thanked God that I did not spoilt a short worship session in the Chinese ministry later in the night. I was requested to help by Pastor Lifang last min! As a drummer some more! It's been a year an half since I last played drums you know?? Still thanked God because everything turns out fine =)

Retro Night, I've to give it a missed

2008-08-21T12:56:00.003+08:00

It's my off day initially but was called back to work due to insufficient man power. Spend my whole day doing testing for weapon pylons. Quite interesting and fun! Ha. Thank God that I gotten to know friends from another airbase while working together. Had an enjoyable time = )

Night was well spend as few of us leaders who are going for the Thailand trip coming december held our first meeting. Browsed through a series of photographs so we can know a little of that place (Thanks to Angie), planned programmes, lodging, bit of logistics stuffs, crap a little here and there.Ha! I'm so excited to go there. Well, having to come for the meeting means that I missed out my cell gathering! Retro night! I supposed they had quite a fun time of gathering? Hehe. Nice time of taking pictures, eating and fellowship! Good job guys!

Silver medal for Table Tennis Olympic!

2008-08-17T23:39:00.003+08:00

Just get back from Joshua house after a fun gathering with my brothers and sisters watching the Women's table tennis finals. It's really exciting to watch the women's final. Well, I enjoyed the time watching with my friends. It's good to have friends around. Though the Singapore team did not win a Gold medal but giving their best, working hard all the way to the final in such a prestigious event is worth every of our applaudes to them! *Clapping*

Before the gathering. I went with Joshua, Huiyee jie jie and Huilin to visit their "yeye" grandfather. I really thank God when I saw him just now. He is recovering very well. I remembered when I first saw him in hospital. Stroke, bed ridden, not able to open his eyes and not to mention moving his hands and legs, tubes 'plugged' into his troat with a small opening on his neck. After much prayers. Though he is on his wheel chair now. He could open his eyes, move alittle with his hand, body and right leg, breath normally. I'm touched by how God's grace is upon this old man and how strong is his will power. May the Lord continue to have mercy and healing be upon him!

Having my off tomorrow and wednesday. Hope I can enjoy my off day! Cheers!

Back in Teen's Service

2008-08-16T23:21:00.002+08:00

Arh,finally back with the teens. It's good to be back. Seeing many of my younger brothers and sisters. Some grown alittle taller. Ha! It's amazing how much the kids had grown physically at such a short period of time. Well, have they grow more Spiritually then?

I was kind of disappointed when I went back to my cell today. I thought there are more attendees. But, there are only a few.It seems to me that 来了一个又走了一个. I'm not upset because of the attendance but each of the members Spiritual life. Perhaps they are too young? or perhaps I'm really not praying enough? I chose to believe that I've not done enough on my part...I really want to see that each of their life be empowered by the Holy Spirit. Grow to be a man and woman of God. One who will experienced the work of God so strongly even in their school, family and Church.

Well, a good reflection and prayer is good. I'm bothered by too many things now. Too many things... Well, good sleep followed by prayer at 4 - 5 am for the Nation and myself.

Made in USA Born in Singapore!

2008-08-12T23:48:00.002+08:00

Haha! Today was sure a funny day. Had a really funny conversation with my Encik this morning. Went back this morning around 0830am to Nee soon Camp to pack the goodies/fun pack for our Logistic guys. We then talk alittle while packing the stuffs.

Encik started it by saying " Haiz, it's good to have kids when you're young! Look at me? Can't go for early release as my kids are still very young! Primary 1 and 6. Tsktsktsk, you all arh... better have kids while you're still young".

Our Reply, "Wao liew eh, Sir. You think so easy meh? Must find a wife first what!"

Encik :"Ya la... well, you see... one of my kid is made in US."

Me : " Wa! Then he gotten his US citizenship right? That's good!"

Encik : "No leh...dun have"

Us: "Huhhh? Why?"

Encik: " Ai ya... He's 'made' in US la and 'born' in S'pore leh. PiangZ"

Us : "!!HAHAHA!!"

Haha! What a term to use. Made in US Born in S'pore. I couldn't stop laughing whenever I remembered our conversation. Well, good rest day for me! Have lots of goodies and the Fun pack!

国庆日 090808

2008-08-09T22:46:00.003+08:00

祝新加坡43岁生日快乐！哇。。。时间过得真快！一瞬间，四个月的时间就这样过去了。四个月的排练及筹备就为了这一天！坦白讲，虽然过程中有许多埋怨；气愤；劳累；星期六被“吃”掉但在这天当我们 [Logistic] 部门回头看正个国庆庆典时。相信我们不只是带着‘庆幸’[终于可在星期六出去！哈哈！]我们乃是感到非常骄傲及荣幸！我们这一次也得到了那有许多经验的委员会的认同和肯定。我们乃是新加坡历史性最好和最棒的Logistic Support！

虽然，今年的国庆以画上圆满的句号但我相信这是个美好的开始。因我在其中结交了许多朋友！有人说"It's only though trials that you'll meet your true friends"。的确只有在患难的时候，个人才能知道他真真的朋友有哪些。So far so Good！感谢主！

耶和华求你聆听我心声

2008-08-07T19:25:00.005+08:00

赞美耶和华我的神我的主
在这夜里我心寻求你
赞美耶和华我的神我的主
求你求你侧耳聆听

聆听我的祷告
聆听我的声音
聆听我的心完全归于你

聆听我的求告
聆听我的敬拜
聆听我的灵要全归向你

向永生神欢呼
一同高举他名
一生一世我要敬拜你主

以上是一首我写的敬拜诗歌。一个发自我内心深处的祷告。在一个深夜与Klement弟兄在外谈完
话，边走边祷告所写的。记得当时，因为我听了弟兄的分享后。我心在“a state of confusion" ，突然好像有许多事项要祷告，祷告也祷告不完一样！我就像神开始诉说我的心声。呼喊着“阿爸！阿爸！”开始了一个从心的敬拜。大约半小时就曲和词编完了！感谢主！

2008-08-06T22:59:00.002+08:00

啊。。。感恩耶稣赐予这一天！我才刚到家。因为我和成人小组的弟兄们在外用餐；有个小小的交流时间。虽然竟有那短短的三个小时但我相信我们的友谊及弟兄们的感情又深入了一程。

我好享受这一天同时也为这一天感恩。今天，有许多‘工作’。因我现在真在参与国庆的“Logistic”部门所以有许多幕后的事情要办及东西要搬！稍微想象一下。。。你每星期需要‘服侍’好几千人的饮食，饮料，服装，配件，厕所，等等！当然，不只是我们来服侍这好几千人，还有其他同事帮忙。但也区区那百多人而已。

这天，我和一位同事被派到靠近Floating Platform驻港来策划及处理许多Administrative 的工作。因我是个会及很喜欢策划的一个人，所以感恩和兴奋有个机会参与其中！也感恩同事说因为上司认同我所以让我参与其中。这一天，我认为最让我感恩的事是我向另一位同事说声对不起。我正在数算；策划和处理许多事情而真在当而我接到电话。同事说了“Eh, De ren ah. U be free on 5th Sept anot? I replied not sure as it's still a month later. Why? He said it's family day. Ask me want to join in? and wanted an replied immediately! Because Encik wants it." 我过后回答的语气没这么好。因当时我认为在这么短的时间很难给一个确定的答案而他当就要，而一方面我在急着处理国庆的事物。我的心有些烦操。感恩过后圣灵催逼我说声对不起。我就做了。同事也了解及原谅。感恩耶稣！！

讲道，赵庸基牧师的人生

2008-08-05T21:04:00.004+08:00

I'm slowly falling in love. In love with Christian chinese books! Ha! I'm reading a book written by Rev. Cho yonggi called 讲道，我的人生. He's really a very humble servant of God! Teaching us or rather telling us the "secret" why he has powerful messages during each service? Personally, I think it's not only wisdom given by God but most importantly, his heart, attitude and humilty serving God. He prayed 3 hours before he pen down topic on the sermon he gonna preach,seeking God. There after, he prayed another 3 hours,giving thanks to God. (Of course there are more, read the book.)

Right heart with right attitude and humility equals getting right with God! Yea!

Priceless

2008-08-04T21:14:00.007+08:00

Arh! Takamine! I'm 'gian'ing' for this takamine guitar for almost 2 months! Thinking if I should buy it! Well, I gotten this guitar at last.Bought a semi- hard case for S$99.90 and S$700 for the guitar! A very nice mellow yet very clear sound. One who plays guitar would love the sound it produce! U can't buy the sound! It's ~~little~~ expensive but the sound it produced? Priceless.

Had a really blessed time disciplining my disciple yesterday. It's all worth it. A time when I truly see a heart warming picture. I've always see this disciple as someone of a potential leader. Why? He has a heart for God. A heart that desires after God. A young man with right attitude, a pure heart and a heart that desires to encounter God is someone whom God is pleased with. He is one of a few teens at his age that would approach mentors. Asking questions like how to have QT, pray, Listening to voices of God, encounter God, how to walk well with God. Simple yet important questions. It's really rare to see teens at his age, 'bother' about Spiritual life, 'bother' to have a good relationship with Jesus, 'bother' to walk well with God.

During discipleship, he shared a lot about this personal walk. I'm truly touched by his sharing. He's a very logical person and he thought that by doing and fulfilling A to Z is loving Jesus. Desiring Jesus is by doing 1 to 10. Thus, he is in a state of confusion! But I said "Jesus still loves you even you aren't doing anything! God does not need to you to do many things to love you more!".Amen! He would do what he could just to know God alittle more! I believed God will bless him much, so much. God will touch his life and empowered him more in the Spirit! Why?

Because he have a heart for Jesus, he loves Jesus.

This Heart for Jesus? Priceless.

Jedidiah

Mask

2008-07-31T21:09:00.004+08:00

Had a little conversation with colleagues in the afternoon. One was driving and the other beginning to talk. This is our conversations

甲: "Well, I'm more attracted to girl with inner beauty. I [don't care] about how she looks, her images! Inner beauty is more important!"

Me: *Bravo! Clap hands* Splendid! I agreed that inner beauty is part of a main and important thing. But, are sure you [don't really care] about her image or how she looks?

亿: Ha! Tsk Tsk Tsk...

甲: Ya, I don't mind as I find the beauty in her more important!

Me: Well then, how about her weighing 120kg huh??? Pimples all over her face?? Dress oddly?

亿: Haha!

甲: *Smiling*

Image is important to people. People recognised and remembers you when you presented yourself to them with a good image and same thing for one who presented with a bad image. How well you portray yourself, you're graded by others. Many buy and wear trendy clothing,bags, cut a new hair style, style it nicely, trying to be somebody,etc. Why? It's because we want to earn recognition from others. "Hey, just cut your hair? Nice hair style!" or "Where did you buy this top? It looks good on you!" sounds familiar? You feel good each time people gave good comments on you right? Points added. Everyone of us care about how we present ourselves to others. It's just a matter of how well or how much we want to present ourselves.

Recently, I went outing with my some of my brothers and sisters. Had a conversation with one of them. Received comments that I'm portraying 大男人(masculist I supposed), stubborn and one who likes to go on my own way(Which I never thought I would?). When I asked a close friend of mine to describe me. I'm yet another person. I'm one with good listening ear, changed to be more bubbly, thinker,trustworthy. Am I portraying myself to different people at different places? Am I putting on a mask to hide the real me? If so, why? Had a short conversation again with a friend today. Talking about neat person. The friend looks like a neat person. One who would tidy the table nicely, everything in order but yet it's the opposite. Most importantly, she doesn't deny the fact that she's not a neat person. It's just a misconception of how people look at her,thinking she is.

You don't need to be graded by others. You are graded by Jesus! So care a little more how you walk with God. Have you do what you're supposed to do? Pray? Spending time hearing the voice of God? QT? Share the Gospel? Most importantly, Have you asked Jesus what can you do for Him each day? Yes, you need to portray a good image of Jesus! I'm not saying that we can be sloppy or not encourage to buy things that are trendy but it's the focus we must have. Care more of how God look at you.

Let us just be show ourselves, good image of Jesus!

Just settling some thoughts in mind.

Revival Fire that never cease!

2008-07-29T14:31:00.016+08:00

I'm back from Korea Christian Conference and my Heart is filled with lots of thanksgiving! Thank God for all the wonderful experiences I've had last week. Everyday, yes, everyday I experienced God! This year, from what I've heard is that we got all good speakers and I agreed. It's tough having to choose which sermons to skip and spend the time to pray! Alrights, Let me get to the main point. Allow me to share with you some close experiences I've with God!

It's always been my desire to go korea for the past 3 years. I can't go because of my school and finiancially. I 'missed' out 'Worship&Revival', 'Mission&Revival' and one more which I wanted to go very much but can't! I desired to go korea! to learn, spend time to seek God, to know God more! But God is good! I didn't 'missed' without a purpose. God has His timing. Miracle 试试看，做做看，一定行！(Rev. Cho yong gi)

Miracles

It's a miracle that I can go to korea this year. Initially, I was thinking if I can go (Because lots of factor to consider) and so I waited and waited, from an early bird discount of $250 to $150 to NOTHING! Each week I read the brochures, desiring to go very much. Guesswhat? I'm volunteered to participate in NDP as Logistic Personnel since early april. Bravo. My heart sank, I did't even try to ask if I could go because, logically, there's a high possibility that I can't go and so the 'can't go' mindset is set in my head. It was till one day when I had dinner with my current adult cell when Brother Joshua asked me why don't I try to ask if I can go? It was then, strangely, a strong prompting in my Heart that I should go try and telling me that surely I can go! It's all God's miracle! Registration was extented another month. God prompted me to sent sms to my EncikS telling them that I'm going for Christian Conference. I asked my EncikS and NDP In Charge and I'm allowed to go! It's was then I'm remindered by Rev. Cho words of wisdom '试试看，做做看，一定行!' ( for the right purpose of course!)

Creator

It's my first time going korea, praying in the early 4.30am (Singapore time) and praying at the Prayer Mountain which is a cemetery! Hearing people from quite a distance shouting in the cemetry! 'Abachi Abachi Abachi!!!' It's a unique experience! I chose a bench high up on the mountain and spending time reflecting, looking at the sceneries, waiting for sunrise and thank God for who He is, a Creator!

Affirmation

Perhaps, the greatest blessing I received was affirmations God has given me through out this trip. I have known my calling 2 or 3 years back. But being someone who is so logical, I doubt I can serve God in that area then. I can't really speak well nor write good lengthy essay so how am I gonna be use by God? that's what I thought.

Through out these 2 - 3 years, I received countless encouragements or even affirmations here and there but I limited the work of God in me. When I see visions of where I gonna serve and how am I gonna serve. I fear alittle. Fear of 'seeing' the wrong things, Fear of not being able to do this and that. I think you guys are familiar with the story of Moses right? I'm just like Moses then. God! I don't know how to speak! God! I don't know what to write! God! I don't know how to lead! What if? what if? WHAT IF??

But God is a gracious God. A God with lots of patience and torlerence.Amen? I'm released of Fear during Rev. Kong Kee (City Harvest Church) Sermon and Praying time. I'm completely released of all fear of serving God in that area! God said He will teach me to speak,write and to lead! So when Rev.Kong said pray to God to give you a vision. Immediately, I saw myself standing on a stage. Preaching the word of God boldy, filled with confident, with the absolute power from God! Sitting in front of me are few thousands people (those who went to 大圣殿 before, it's much more than that!) I stand in awe of God when I saw that! When I saw the vision, I humbled myself before God. For it's really not by my might,my power but by God's Spirit to have me serve Him! PTL!

I recevied another encouragement from God when I'm at Yoido Full Gospel Church (Biggest Church with 750,000 members) friday night. It's really awesome to worship and listening to word of God with like few thousands or 20,000 broS/sisS at one place? During sermon, it was just a thought from me that 'Woa, how well the Pastor lead worship and the word of God! God really bless them much huh?'

A clear voice from God speak to me immediately! ' You don't need to aspire to be, you're called to be!' Tears just rolled down my cheek.

Lastly, we went for a prayer meet on sat night. Led by Worship Leader Pastor He Yong Ren. Great worship place. Same thing, thousands of people. I felt loved much. God prompted Brother Eric Chan qi jie to pray for me using Romans 8:28. Then released words for me! Telling me that God gonna work in me, bringing me back to that first love! Sister Shu xin ( Dingliang wife) Prayed for me too. Strong words and visions was cast unto me, saying Gold dust was on my face, God's glory shines on my face! I was ministered both by the word of God and His Spirit. My heart feel as light as a feather. God is good to the extent that He spoke and affirmed me once again when we attended the Sunday Service on Sunday morning. Speaking the Exact SAME VERSE from Romans 8:28!!

Indeed, God sees the Heart of man. Learning to have a right heart is important. For in 1 Samuel 16:7 [ "7 But the LORD said to Samuel, "Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The LORD does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart." ] It's all about the heart that matters to God.

This time the Revival Fire will never cease, when you think it will cease, it will. If not, it will burns much more vigorously! Amen!

Jedidiah

Group gathered photo! Greenies are the one going korea!

From Left: Eric Ng, Me and Zeng zi at Prayer Mountain cemetry!

Macro Pic I took at the cemetry!

This is the 大圣殿! Can seat around 5000 members ONLY?

Cell group we attended : From Right; Eric, me, Pastor Yun daughter and his church member

Yummy Yum Yum! Some korea dishes we had at cell!

Daughter of the Cell leader she's called "Yu ri"

Prayer meet at a stadium. Led by Pastor and worship leader

He Yong Ren

Me in front of Yoido Full Gospel Church!

汝矣岛纯福音教会

Fulfilling Day!

2008-07-19T00:26:00.002+08:00

Had quite a short work time today! After work, I went to Billy Bomber. Have my usual Cafe Latte and started to prepare my discipleship material plus reading "3:16 Numbers of Hope" by Max Lucado. Had really a great time preparing the discipleship material and thinking about what was said in the book. I'm refreshed and rejuvenate once again! Thank God and Max! What he wrote in the book really brought me back to the focus, God's Love. Praise the Lord!

I'm really excited about the trip to Korea! Can't wait till sunday !!!!!!!!!

Ubin Trip! 140708

2008-07-18T10:03:00.010+08:00

Ah! Finally, I got sometime here to update my blog? Hehe. Well, I think I had a real fun week! After sending Esther off for her mission trip. A few of us; Angeline, Sihui, Eric, Yangyang and me went to Ubin for cycling! I was quite reluctant to go initially because I'm abit tired. God then say "Go on..." so I go. It was then I realised that I made a right choice! Ha. We had a fun time cycling around Ubin, Crapping and taking pictures! After which, all of us when to Kbox at DownTown east shopping mall for a round of singing! Yea! Some Pictures to share =)

From Top Left: Angie, YangX2, Eric and Sihui

2 pics I like best!

Eric : What you looking at huh?

Taken at our first stop for rest!

Cycling Gang!

2008-07-13T22:02:00.002+08:00

It's a very tiring day for me. I woke up 0530 hrs for morning prayers today after long hours yesterday ( 0830 hrs to 2230 hrs, reached home and slp around 0000 hrs). Tired! Ha. First time in my life as a Christian that I almost fall asleep during the last part of sermon! Alrights, this is not how bad my Snr Pastor preaching skills was all about but I'm just too tired. Tired Tired Tired... continued tomorrow. Got to sleep early as many of us will be seeing Esther off to Mission trip tomorrow morning! 0630am? haha. Then proceed to Ubin to cycle!

Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus

2008-07-11T20:55:00.002+08:00

Well, started "Work" aka "SaiKang" at 4pm today. Helping out to arrange a total of around 4000 chairs? Went with my "Encik" (Warrent Officer) to collect some shirts for participants. Then, having an opportunity to start an interesting conversation with him while making our way there. It all started when I saw this BMW sport car, a long hair lady driving it.

Me : Wao, a nice BMW Sport Car!

Encik: Where? Where ar?

Me: There! Behind the Bus!

Encik: Orh...

Me: Wao! A long hair Lady driving it some more!

Encik: Tsk tsk tsk, well boy. Sometimes you've to see who's her father?

Encik: So choosing a correct girl with a correct Father-in-law is important you know?

Me: Ha Ha Ha! Opps, Encik... I bet you chose the wrong woman then?

Encik: Erm, maybe...Opps! =X
(*Warning* Above conversation is just something we crap only)

Well, of course the conversation doesn't stop here. We shared more. He's a Catholic and knowing I'm a Christian, we tend to have more things to say. He began to share about problems between him and his wife when they view many things in life. Little things like housework to talking to a sales girl. Most Men are more of a Logical being and a problem fixer while Most Women based more on their feelings, they are emotional being. From the Book Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus, by John Gray

"A man's sense of self is defined through his ability to achieve results"

"A woman's sense of self is defined through her feelings and quality of her relationships."

It's really interesting how a man and woman can fall for each other despite the so many differences in them. I wondered. Encik then shared that there are no perfect Man or Woman in this world. He said that when he went for pre-marriage councelling, the person shared that their Lovey Dovy feeling would soon passed in their first year of marriage. It's love that substain. So what's love then? Just like the marriage oath couples take infront of the altar. Here's an extract from a book by Max Lucado 3:16 the numbers of Hope.

[ ... I saw a shard of such love between an elderly man and woman who have been married for fifty years. The last decade has been marred by her dementia. The Husband did the best he could to care for his wife at home, but she grew sicker; he, older. So he admitted her to full-time care.

One day he asked me to visit her, so I did. Her room was spotless, thanks to his diligence. She, horizontal on the bed , was bathed and dressed, though going nowhere.

"I arrived at 6:15 a.m.," he beamed. "You'd think I was on the payroll. I feed her, bathe her, and stay with her. I will until one of us dies." Agape Love. ]

Agape Love : Less an affection, more a decision; less a feeling, more an action.

I was touched by this short story from Max L. This is Love.

Campus Crusade 10/07/08

2008-07-11T08:44:00.015+08:00

Got a 1/2 day off yesterday! Yea. Surprisingly, NDP stall ends real early yesterday! Teamwork perhaps? Haha. Went out with Klement after that. We went to Downtown East new shopping mall. Had our buffet lunch at a Japanese Restuarant. I still support Waraku, it's expensive but best Jap food so far. Well, both of us had a good chat and sharing session. Encourage, motivating each other.

Me and Klement

Quite nice huh! haha.

Picture Taken while in Klement Car. Find that it got lots of meaning so I took it.

Next Stop, my Alma Mater Temasek Polytechnic! Both of us went back to see our younger Crusaders. Catching up with them. I stayed through out the DG session and I could really sense God working among them! Each of my younger brothers life is empowered by the Holy Spirit! Living a Spirit filled life! Hallelujah! Each shared about their testimony, encounter with God, thanksgiving and truth. I see blessing from God. Lots of blessing. We had this lesson on "Taming the tongue" readup on Book of James 3 : 1 - 12. I think each of us learnt alot from this DG session.

Younger Generation Crusaders : From Left. John and Benjamin (DGL). Wanted to take a Candid shot but they chose to pose instead.Ha!

Abit blur but well, only photo of JAM at the Back.

Funny and Jovial guy Nicholas!

Having a good time of fellowship!

Jeremiah 29:11

2008-07-08T20:22:00.005+08:00

Got this from Parkway parade. Not really fascinating but.. not bad ? Some Jazzy/Pop feel.

Anyway, this is not the main thing I'm posting this.Ha. Well, chose to stay at home tonight instead of prayer meeting. Just to relax, settling some thoughts, reading 3:16 by Max Lucado given by my Lovely Sec 3 cell members for my birthday gift! and listening to Sunday Worship Practise which was recorded last sunday (Trying hard to listen to my voice so I can better improve it but it was too soft!).

I was reflecting and thinking about many things while listening to the songs from worship practise. Then, I was like "Holy! ..." when I saw the recorded time 29:11 in my window media player. I was then reminded of this verse.

(Jeremiah 29:11) "11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

I know what the Lord wants of me, More of you and less of me.

Youth Day

2008-07-06T23:41:00.002+08:00

Well, Sunday (060708) was a damn tiring day for me yet a day full of thanksgiving. Chop Chop before "lights out" for me.

- Thank God for my cell. Really. When I see Jonathan so proactive to be a "victim" for our stall.That's Blessed. When I see John came too? That's all the more like Heaven sent.

- Thank God that everyone was enjoying the fund raising =)

- Thank God for we received Good Comments from people especially the cookies group. Affirmed for their baking skills! Well done gentlemen/girls!

- Thank God we managed to raise $1600!

- Thank God that I really enjoyed myself during the worship practice.

- Thank God for wonderful brothers (Yihao, Yiyi, Thomas, Jack, Weekoen, Wenhao, Senhui, Jonathan) and my cousin who wrote me a birthday card and buy me a book!

Last but not least. I must really thank 2 wonderful and lovely Sisters (Angie and Esther) who co-lead with me taking care of secondary 3. Continue to plan, guide, lead, shepherd, making every effort to call my little brothers, outing, ideas in blessing the cell, teaching, etc. Gosh, I missed out a lot because of NDP. But God is good! He led more little bros/sisS into our mist.

Well, sometimes I wondered why have I missed out so many things? It's seems that I missed out alot. Alot. It's so demoralizing, very infact. It's just that I do not write it on my face ok. I'm not someone who easily show the I'm defeated kind of look. I'll carry and carry and carry till the day I drop or rather when I chose to let Christ carry.

Perhaps this is not where I should serve? or God is showing me another?

Just some 'a pense'

Finishing the race, that's glory!

2008-07-04T10:22:00.003+08:00

Starting the race is easy
Running the race is hardwork
Finishing the race, that's glory!

Got this from my discipleship material and when I reflected on it.Amen. When we "Started" as a Christian, it's always easy. Well, all you need is to say a sinner's prayer and confess Christ is Lord. Easy uh? It isn't that hard to be a Christian after all ? You get interested in this and that. Then you began to find out more by asking the 'older' Christians lots of questions? What's serving? How do I read the bible? Why are there different languages in the world and will God understand their languages when they pray? Sounds familiar?

What makes it hard is when a Christian began to walk the talk. When we started to "Run the race". Like running in a race. After you ran a certain distance, each step takes more effort, breathless, etc. You feel like giving up! It's all about mental power and hard work! It's always easy to believe in something we are able to see and I think being able to hold on the the Hope we believed( and not able to see by our naked eyes) take lots of hardwork.Lots of Faith. Perhaps to some of us. It may be a light at the end of the tunnel which gives you hope or could the light be an incoming train?
In John 20,

29Then Jesus told him, "Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed."

Many of my brothers and sisters do give up mid way when they run the race but Jesus said Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed! Perhaps the greatest comfort I could find in God's words, is this verse. Words from Jesus when He spoke to Thomas.

I wouldn't say "finishing the race, that's glory" but Finishing the race well,that's glory! When the day comes and I face the Lord. I do hope He will say to me "well done, my good and faithful servant!"

Jed A pense

John 14:1

2008-07-02T23:43:00.004+08:00

It isn't easy crossing age of 21 because you need to face the fact that you're going into adulthood. What the hack? Yep, that's my initial thought when I spent time reflecting. Thoughts just came in one after another. Calling, Career, Studying degree(s), Finding a spouse (gets irritating when your mom nagged or say things like "perhaps my boy is a gay?"), Managing well my finance, Saving up for future use, etc.

Perhaps I just started work, so naturally I gave much thought about my career. What am I going to do in the next 10 years of my contract? Continue to be a Specialist and going on to "Encik"? (Warrent Officer) or aim and strive for a conversion to AMO (Air Maintenance Officer) at the same time studying a degree in Engineering which is related to my work? I'm convicted to go for the aim.

I think if I never give a TRY to go OCS and pass out as an Officer, this might be my biggest regret in my life. It's my dream and I ought to give a try right? I'm troubled but God say

1"Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God^[a]; trust also in me (Jesus)." John 14:1

Things I can't foresee, lots of possibililty. These troubled me. Perhaps God wants me to learn another level of trust? Let me then "试试看，做做看，一定行!" Haha.

Goals?

2008-07-02T09:39:00.004+08:00

Firstly,

Happy Birthday to me
Happy Birthday to me
Happy Birthday to meee
Happy Birthday to me!

Great.I'm another year older.Ha.22 too already and how does it feels or what have I achieved so far? I'm a person who works towards my goal and making sure I achieved it, if possible. Determination is there. Started since secondary 3.

Goals when I'm in sec 3 and I achieved it!

- Temasek Polytechnic Diploma in Mechatronic

- Slim down from 89kg to 72kg (Yes,I was that heavy then)

- Work in a military organisation

Goals for now...

- Conversion to Officer

- Studying a degree

- Theological College

Well, of course there are more.I just listed some of the major ones. I'm one who believes "Failing to Plan is Planning to Fail." Of course, as one who is a Christian.I do my part by planning and let God do the rest! Being an Millitary Officer has been my childhood dream and I'm still praying hard to achieve it. Pray for me too.

Acapella of Phil Collin "In the air tonight"

2008-06-30T19:37:00.005+08:00

Got this clip from a friend blog! Acapella version of Phil Collins' "In the air tonight" Nice...

1 by 1 my friends left me =P

2008-06-30T16:15:00.004+08:00

Reveille 0530 hrs.That's the time I woke up today! Gosh.Ever since my BMT it's been long since I woke up at this time. Called Miss Choo at 0535hrs for morning call.Great.She didn't pickup.2nd time at 0545hrs she hung up on my phone! Thought she woke up and started to prepare and meet me to go to Changi Airport. Feeling alittle uneasy,I called her once more and Behold!She's just woke up. Ha. Crap.Alright, main point is to sent off one of our friend from Campus Crusade for Christ to Australia for further studies! Sob. Gonna missed ye! Met up many of my juniors and ex-crusaders from TP.God is faithful to TP CCC as I can see how God raised up leaders among my juniors one batch after another, 2 batches infact because I just graduated not long ago? Ha. Well, I believed God is still working and raising up many now! Amen!

I'm excited to go for this coming Korea Christian Conference! Yea! BUT at the same time.I felt a little up sad as I'm unable to sent my best of friends and buddy Klement off to Australia for his studies! His departure date is 2 days earlier before I come back from korea. Definiately, I'm gonna missed you bro! As I've promised, I've gotten a webcam just for you! Aww... Ha! Cheers!

BBQ at my cousin house 290608

2008-06-30T15:48:00.006+08:00

Weekoen : Ah ah sioooo

Me: Style num 5?

Both pics taken with my Ixus 80.Not bad for a $390 cam? =)

Well, personally I think I had enjoyable night with my church friends at my cousin house yesterday. The plan was to have a small gathering at my cousin place. A gathering with my cousin before he was called to serve the nation? Ha. However, to my pleasant surprise? They celebrated weekoen and my birthday too! Awesome. I'm really touched yesterday. Alright, perhaps you think that it's just another birthday celebration? But to me, it's REALLY memorable as I don't celebrate or rather, remembers my birthday. I'm REALLY touched. I felt blessed too as I've wonderful friends around me or should I call them Angels?haha.Wonderful tonight.