Thursday, July 31, 2008

Mask

Had a little conversation with colleagues in the afternoon. One was driving and the other beginning to talk. This is our conversations

甲: "Well, I'm more attracted to girl with inner beauty. I [don't care] about how she looks, her images! Inner beauty is more important!"

Me: *Bravo! Clap hands* Splendid! I agreed that inner beauty is part of a main and important thing. But, are sure you [don't really care] about her image or how she looks?

亿: Ha! Tsk Tsk Tsk...

甲: Ya, I don't mind as I find the beauty in her more important!

Me: Well then, how about her weighing 120kg huh??? Pimples all over her face?? Dress oddly?

亿: Haha!

甲: *Smiling*

Image is important to people. People recognised and remembers you when you presented yourself to them with a good image and same thing for one who presented with a bad image. How well you portray yourself, you're graded by others. Many buy and wear trendy clothing,bags, cut a new hair style, style it nicely, trying to be somebody,etc. Why? It's because we want to earn recognition from others. "Hey, just cut your hair? Nice hair style!" or "Where did you buy this top? It looks good on you!" sounds familiar? You feel good each time people gave good comments on you right? Points added. Everyone of us care about how we present ourselves to others. It's just a matter of how well or how much we want to present ourselves.

Recently, I went outing with my some of my brothers and sisters. Had a conversation with one of them. Received comments that I'm portraying 大男人(masculist I supposed), stubborn and one who likes to go on my own way(Which I never thought I would?). When I asked a close friend of mine to describe me. I'm yet another person. I'm one with good listening ear, changed to be more bubbly, thinker,trustworthy. Am I portraying myself to different people at different places? Am I putting on a mask to hide the real me? If so, why? Had a short conversation again with a friend today. Talking about neat person. The friend looks like a neat person. One who would tidy the table nicely, everything in order but yet it's the opposite. Most importantly, she doesn't deny the fact that she's not a neat person. It's just a misconception of how people look at her,thinking she is.

You don't need to be graded by others. You are graded by Jesus! So care a little more how you walk with God. Have you do what you're supposed to do? Pray? Spending time hearing the voice of God? QT? Share the Gospel? Most importantly, Have you asked Jesus what can you do for Him each day? Yes, you need to portray a good image of Jesus! I'm not saying that we can be sloppy or not encourage to buy things that are trendy but it's the focus we must have. Care more of how God look at you.

Let us just be show ourselves, good image of Jesus!

Just settling some thoughts in mind.

Jedidiah; 9:09 PM

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Revival Fire that never cease!

I'm back from Korea Christian Conference and my Heart is filled with lots of thanksgiving! Thank God for all the wonderful experiences I've had last week. Everyday, yes, everyday I experienced God! This year, from what I've heard is that we got all good speakers and I agreed. It's tough having to choose which sermons to skip and spend the time to pray! Alrights, Let me get to the main point. Allow me to share with you some close experiences I've with God!

Jedidiah; 2:31 PM

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Fulfilling Day!

Had quite a short work time today! After work, I went to Billy Bomber. Have my usual Cafe Latte and started to prepare my discipleship material plus reading "3:16 Numbers of Hope" by Max Lucado. Had really a great time preparing the discipleship material and thinking about what was said in the book. I'm refreshed and rejuvenate once again! Thank God and Max! What he wrote in the book really brought me back to the focus, God's Love. Praise the Lord!

I'm really excited about the trip to Korea! Can't wait till sunday !!!!!!!!!

Jedidiah; 12:26 AM

Friday, July 18, 2008

Ubin Trip! 140708

Ah! Finally, I got sometime here to update my blog? Hehe. Well, I think I had a real fun week! After sending Esther off for her mission trip. A few of us; Angeline, Sihui, Eric, Yangyang and me went to Ubin for cycling! I was quite reluctant to go initially because I'm abit tired. God then say "Go on..." so I go. It was then I realised that I made a right choice! Ha. We had a fun time cycling around Ubin, Crapping and taking pictures! After which, all of us when to Kbox at DownTown east shopping mall for a round of singing! Yea! Some Pictures to share =)

Jedidiah; 10:03 AM

Sunday, July 13, 2008

It's a very tiring day for me. I woke up 0530 hrs for morning prayers today after long hours yesterday ( 0830 hrs to 2230 hrs, reached home and slp around 0000 hrs). Tired! Ha. First time in my life as a Christian that I almost fall asleep during the last part of sermon! Alrights, this is not how bad my Snr Pastor preaching skills was all about but I'm just too tired. Tired Tired Tired... continued tomorrow. Got to sleep early as many of us will be seeing Esther off to Mission trip tomorrow morning! 0630am? haha. Then proceed to Ubin to cycle!

Jedidiah; 10:02 PM

Friday, July 11, 2008

Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus

Well, started "Work" aka "SaiKang" at 4pm today. Helping out to arrange a total of around 4000 chairs? Went with my "Encik" (Warrent Officer) to collect some shirts for participants. Then, having an opportunity to start an interesting conversation with him while making our way there. It all started when I saw this BMW sport car, a long hair lady driving it.

Me : Wao, a nice BMW Sport Car!

Encik: Where? Where ar?

Me: There! Behind the Bus!

Encik: Orh...

Me: Wao! A long hair Lady driving it some more!

Encik: Tsk tsk tsk, well boy. Sometimes you've to see who's her father?

Encik: So choosing a correct girl with a correct Father-in-law is important you know?

Me: Ha Ha Ha! Opps, Encik... I bet you chose the wrong woman then?

Encik: Erm, maybe...Opps! =X
(*Warning* Above conversation is just something we crap only)

Well, of course the conversation doesn't stop here. We shared more. He's a Catholic and knowing I'm a Christian, we tend to have more things to say. He began to share about problems between him and his wife when they view many things in life. Little things like housework to talking to a sales girl. Most Men are more of a Logical being and a problem fixer while Most Women based more on their feelings, they are emotional being. From the Book Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus, by John Gray

"A man's sense of self is defined through his ability to achieve results"

"A woman's sense of self is defined through her feelings and quality of her relationships."

It's really interesting how a man and woman can fall for each other despite the so many differences in them. I wondered. Encik then shared that there are no perfect Man or Woman in this world. He said that when he went for pre-marriage councelling, the person shared that their Lovey Dovy feeling would soon passed in their first year of marriage. It's love that substain. So what's love then? Just like the marriage oath couples take infront of the altar. Here's an extract from a book by Max Lucado 3:16 the numbers of Hope.

[ ... I saw a shard of such love between an elderly man and woman who have been married for fifty years. The last decade has been marred by her dementia. The Husband did the best he could to care for his wife at home, but she grew sicker; he, older. So he admitted her to full-time care.

One day he asked me to visit her, so I did. Her room was spotless, thanks to his diligence. She, horizontal on the bed , was bathed and dressed, though going nowhere.

"I arrived at 6:15 a.m.," he beamed. "You'd think I was on the payroll. I feed her, bathe her, and stay with her. I will until one of us dies." Agape Love. ]

Agape Love : Less an affection, more a decision; less a feeling, more an action.

I was touched by this short story from Max L. This is Love.

Jedidiah; 8:55 PM

Campus Crusade 10/07/08

Got a 1/2 day off yesterday! Yea. Surprisingly, NDP stall ends real early yesterday! Teamwork perhaps? Haha. Went out with Klement after that. We went to Downtown East new shopping mall. Had our buffet lunch at a Japanese Restuarant. I still support Waraku, it's expensive but best Jap food so far. Well, both of us had a good chat and sharing session. Encourage, motivating each other.

Jedidiah; 8:44 AM

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Jeremiah 29:11

Jedidiah; 8:22 PM

Sunday, July 6, 2008

Youth Day

Well, Sunday (060708) was a damn tiring day for me yet a day full of thanksgiving. Chop Chop before "lights out" for me.

- Thank God for my cell. Really. When I see Jonathan so proactive to be a "victim" for our stall.That's Blessed. When I see John came too? That's all the more like Heaven sent.

- Thank God that everyone was enjoying the fund raising =)

- Thank God for we received Good Comments from people especially the cookies group. Affirmed for their baking skills! Well done gentlemen/girls!

- Thank God we managed to raise $1600!

- Thank God that I really enjoyed myself during the worship practice.

- Thank God for wonderful brothers (Yihao, Yiyi, Thomas, Jack, Weekoen, Wenhao, Senhui, Jonathan) and my cousin who wrote me a birthday card and buy me a book!

Last but not least. I must really thank 2 wonderful and lovely Sisters (Angie and Esther) who co-lead with me taking care of secondary 3. Continue to plan, guide, lead, shepherd, making every effort to call my little brothers, outing, ideas in blessing the cell, teaching, etc. Gosh, I missed out a lot because of NDP. But God is good! He led more little bros/sisS into our mist.

Well, sometimes I wondered why have I missed out so many things? It's seems that I missed out alot. Alot. It's so demoralizing, very infact. It's just that I do not write it on my face ok. I'm not someone who easily show the I'm defeated kind of look. I'll carry and carry and carry till the day I drop or rather when I chose to let Christ carry.

Perhaps this is not where I should serve? or God is showing me another?

Just some 'a pense'

Jedidiah; 11:41 PM

Friday, July 4, 2008

Finishing the race, that's glory!

Starting the race is easy
Running the race is hardwork
Finishing the race, that's glory!

Got this from my discipleship material and when I reflected on it.Amen. When we "Started" as a Christian, it's always easy. Well, all you need is to say a sinner's prayer and confess Christ is Lord. Easy uh? It isn't that hard to be a Christian after all ? You get interested in this and that. Then you began to find out more by asking the 'older' Christians lots of questions? What's serving? How do I read the bible? Why are there different languages in the world and will God understand their languages when they pray? Sounds familiar?

What makes it hard is when a Christian began to walk the talk. When we started to "Run the race". Like running in a race. After you ran a certain distance, each step takes more effort, breathless, etc. You feel like giving up! It's all about mental power and hard work! It's always easy to believe in something we are able to see and I think being able to hold on the the Hope we believed( and not able to see by our naked eyes) take lots of hardwork.Lots of Faith. Perhaps to some of us. It may be a light at the end of the tunnel which gives you hope or could the light be an incoming train?
In John 20,

29Then Jesus told him, "Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed."

Many of my brothers and sisters do give up mid way when they run the race but Jesus said Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed! Perhaps the greatest comfort I could find in God's words, is this verse. Words from Jesus when He spoke to Thomas.

I wouldn't say "finishing the race, that's glory" but Finishing the race well,that's glory! When the day comes and I face the Lord. I do hope He will say to me "well done, my good and faithful servant!"

Jed A pense

Jedidiah; 10:22 AM

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

John 14:1

It isn't easy crossing age of 21 because you need to face the fact that you're going into adulthood. What the hack? Yep, that's my initial thought when I spent time reflecting. Thoughts just came in one after another. Calling, Career, Studying degree(s), Finding a spouse (gets irritating when your mom nagged or say things like "perhaps my boy is a gay?"), Managing well my finance, Saving up for future use, etc.

Perhaps I just started work, so naturally I gave much thought about my career. What am I going to do in the next 10 years of my contract? Continue to be a Specialist and going on to "Encik"? (Warrent Officer) or aim and strive for a conversion to AMO (Air Maintenance Officer) at the same time studying a degree in Engineering which is related to my work? I'm convicted to go for the aim.

I think if I never give a TRY to go OCS and pass out as an Officer, this might be my biggest regret in my life. It's my dream and I ought to give a try right? I'm troubled but God say

1"Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God^[a]; trust also in me (Jesus)." John 14:1

Things I can't foresee, lots of possibililty. These troubled me. Perhaps God wants me to learn another level of trust? Let me then "试试看，做做看，一定行!" Haha.

Jedidiah; 11:43 PM

Goals?

Firstly,

Happy Birthday to me
Happy Birthday to me
Happy Birthday to meee
Happy Birthday to me!

Great.I'm another year older.Ha.22 too already and how does it feels or what have I achieved so far? I'm a person who works towards my goal and making sure I achieved it, if possible. Determination is there. Started since secondary 3.

Goals when I'm in sec 3 and I achieved it!

- Temasek Polytechnic Diploma in Mechatronic

- Slim down from 89kg to 72kg (Yes,I was that heavy then)

- Work in a military organisation

Goals for now...

- Conversion to Officer

- Studying a degree

- Theological College

Well, of course there are more.I just listed some of the major ones. I'm one who believes "Failing to Plan is Planning to Fail." Of course, as one who is a Christian.I do my part by planning and let God do the rest! Being an Millitary Officer has been my childhood dream and I'm still praying hard to achieve it. Pray for me too.

Jedidiah; 9:39 AM